G'day ladies, and big thanks to you all for your lovely welcomes!! Must admit its nice to be back here again, but i'm still nervous about it at the same time

Renee - thinking of you and cant wait to hear of your bubs safe arrival. Not long now, hang in there xx

Possums - great results!! now you can relax a little. AHHh such a nerve-wracking time, i wish i could just sleep till after the 12 week scan!! I'm also feeling very bloated lately, but i'm also on prednisolone and that can make you "puff-up" a bit. I think i'm meant to stay on it til 12 weeks so god knows what i'll look like then, probably look ready to give birth!!

dreamrise - I dont have any children yet but i can imagine that protective feeling. I think if this bub does make it, after the journey to finally have them, i wont let them out of my sight!!! Just means you are a loving mother and certainly DOESN'T mean you are only meant to have just one child.

To answer your questions about my previous m/c i'll be brief cause i dont really want to talk about it on a pregnancy thread...but just to give you my history. 1st m/c was a blighted ovum, no bub or heartbeat seen at 7 weeks scan & i had D&C at 9 weeks, 2nd was a missed m/c saw good h/b at 7 wks then decided to have no more scans til 13 wks, but started bleeding 2 days before 13wk scan & was in hospital for 2 nights as i had an infection cause bub had passed away at about 8 weeks. 3rd m/c was early at 5 wks and last one in aug had good h/b at 7 weeks, then wanted weekly scans (after the last missed m/c) but at 8 wks no h/b & in hospital again for D&C.

....needless to say i'm very very cautious & nervous about this one!! its really hard to trust my body. But in saying that i also feel that my body "wants" to be pregnant, i've done 4 ivf cycles in the last 2 years and have fallen pg each time...so i guess something is trying really hard. This is what has kept me going i think, knowing that i CAN fall pg relatively easily (well, "easy" in the ivf world) i just keep thinking "surely we have to be lucky eventually"!! Also i'm on all the drugs & goodies possible to help things along so i think if it still doesnt work this time then there is nothing else to try...this is it!!

I'm 5 wks today. Haven't booked my scan yet...thats how unconfident i am! i even did another HPT this afternoon just to make sure the line was still there...of course its really dark and no indication of how levels are going but its just that silly voice that doubts that a pregnancy can actually happen. i will always now marvel at the miracle of life, how a little baby can grow from just a few cells....its a bl00dy HUGE job, i just hope I can really do a good job this time

Sorry for the blab there...thats me anyway, i'm hoping you kind ladies here can help keep me reasonably sane over the coming weeks...i hope i dont drive you all crazy with my worrying!!

Have a great night
Yogi xx