I know what's it's like to be angry and envy others... took me over 14 months to conceive. Which isnt as long and painful as you, but I honestly thought it would never happen.
Now it has, my husband has walked out on me. And i am so angry and envy all my friends and family that decided hey, let's have a baby. Then BAM they were preg. And now they have their husband, their baby, their happy family....why cant it be as simple as that for me?
I felt SO guilty that i'm feeling miserable all the time. I wanted a baby so much, I should be celebrating.
So I am trying to Forget everyone else. I've been relaxing, reading preg books, imagining what i'll do with the nursery, thinking about baby names..... trying to just concentrate on my baby. Because that is all that matters in the world now.