Thanks everyone for all your support i am just lost with what to do with myself my world has been urned upside down again and just struggling still feel numb about it all have been booked in for D&C for next wed thought they could have got it earlier for me. there is no blood or brown stuff all is normal thats why it feels a bit sureal but just scared to go toilet all the time and feel like i am on my own with it all also hospital asked what they would like me to do with the remians of my baby as in england its against the law to throw any away so my options are take baby home with me put it in fridge or freezer till i decide what to do or they cremate baby with or without me there now taking baby home is not an option dont like the idea of having baby in my fridge or frezzer just doesnt seem right so i am gonna get baby cremated but hubby doesnt want to go and i feel like how can i not go to my own babys service if they are gonna do one anyway so not sure what to do just dont want to make desicons right now but i have to also how much time off work do people have for things like this my doc has signed me off for next week for me to then return on the 3rd when i dont have surgery till wed 27th sorry to go on thanks agian for listning and all your surport xxx