Brief history: Blighted ovum; discovered at 9weeks. miscarried naturally at 12weeks
Miscarriage at 5weeks 2days
Currently 7weeks pregnant

I feel so disconnected from this pregnancy. I feel pregnant. I know i'm pregnant. I want another baby. I want to be pregnant. I'm happy to be pregnant. But this isn't the first baby that I thought I was having. It's not the baby that I really want. I should be delivering in 6weeks. I should be holding that baby. The one that I was extremely excited about. The one that I was over the moon about. This one I have to pull out baby clothes already to consider the idea that I am having another baby. But it's not working. It's still not that baby.

Should I be actively trying more to talk to this bub, enjoy this bub, love this bub? Or will it just come over time as I feel movements etc. I'm just too disappointed and sad to get excited that i'm having this baby.
Does this even make sense?