hi all. I hope you're well. I think I'm updated on the posts, but may have missed a page.

dory - it sounds like stopping work has been a huge benefit for you. your stories of loss are heartbreaking, but the courage and dignity to try agan is awe inspiring

sparkle - I understand the stress leading up to the scan. good luck with it. we had the dr turn the screen off so we couldn't see anything until he checked bub was alive. the relief lasted about 2 weeks before other fears reared their head again.

milly - i still check the TP too I don't think the fear ever stops, it's how we manage it that counts.

hope everyone else is well

not much going on here. still tired every afternoon. yesterday I could feel the bump (small and quite low), today i can't but my boobs seem bigger, so I'm taking that as a good sign. I'm 15wks tomorrow. I've become quite stressed reading a few loss stories recently, so I need to work out a way to manage that. I'm thinking of counselling or working with a doula or someone. We've also ordered a blood pressure monitor so I can keep an eye on my anxiety levels. And we're off to the baby show on the weekend to do some research and hopefully get some bargains

Will try to keep up, but only have time to come during work hours and I really need to get some work done - haven't done much today