Millyd - goodness - good to see you! Go girl! Your question got me thinking.... and I realised, that paralysing fear that was with me for so much of this journey so far, well it's not as paralysing any more. I don't know if I just got used to it or whether it subsided. But the thing is I am not really sure when all that happened. I think it happened gradually with each passing day/week and with each milestone. The milestones now serve to make me more confident. Still scared, but I am not as terrified as I once was. I just hope that as time progresses and you reach the milestones that the paralysing fear subsides for you too. I still check the loo paper, and I think I always will. But it's really nice to be able to realise that the fear is different now. For me there is more hope. I am not quite yet where Elise it at, but I am starting to imagine a world where I could be.

Elise - I am so happy for you. How exciting to have that belief, I am so proud of you. ( as you can see I can't even type it, even for you, but that's just my own quirkiness). Good you're booked in the hossy and are starting to pack. I have had a bag out for ages and slowly adding to it. Just stupid stuff initially - like maternity pads, lip balm, tissues, baby wipes, breast pads, nappy rash cream, nappies, blankets for bubs, extra toiletries for me and DH, face washers. No clothes as I have been avoiding getting any more and I use the ones that fit. I have a whole heap of baby clothes packed away that I will need to re-wash soon. It's pretty exciting when you hang those wee little clothes out on the line to dry and look at how small they are and realise the impeding reality. So even though I can't actually type it or say it, I am taking some actions that say I do have some belief.

Good luck or your GD this arvo. It's only the 1 hour test right? I did the 2 hour test earlier in the year, 1 day before my BFP actually, and I wasn't permitted to leave the pathology lab, but I think they do let you leave for the 1 hour test! Having said that though, the two hours passed quickly enough with my book and my i pod and the glucose drink wasn't vile like I thought it would be.


Sammy - how are you doing? Thinking of you and sending big hugs.

Audax - how's it going?

AFM - Ob appointment this morning - all good. Bubs heartbeat was ranging between 130 -150 and bubs moved several times. Ob says it's perfect to have such variation whilst bubs was exerting themselves. Then I just came home and watched a DVD with 3 snuggle cats... oh the life. I do not regret leaving work one bit. In fact, I suspect had I not left work, the pregnancy would not have progressed this far. Take care my lovlies. Thinking of you, even those who I didn't mention by name. That's just because I didn't scroll back through the other pages and have a terrible memory.