Hi Tegam: Welcome to the thread. Great to hear your good news. I can understand why hearing about others' losses is difficult. But you have had a rough time already this year so hopefully now it is your turn for a smooth ride. How far along are you?

AFM: Saw my OB today. He had the scan report and did his own scan today. Baby looks fine but i've had quite a lot of bleeding today both before and after i saw the OB so i'm feeling miserable. I just can't believe that this much blood can have a happy ending I really want this baby but feel like i'm not destined to have it. I hate this sense of doom too. I know it doesn't help. I wish i could hide under the covers and come out in about 5 wks (with good news of course!) Sorry for 'me' rant.
Thanks for your kind words Possium, even more special seeing you yourself said that you are having a bad day. I am sorry to hear that you are bleeding! That must be very stressful, but i cant believe how common it is in early pregnancy, there are so many ladies that think the worse and then hear that heartbeat at the next visit! You are in my thoughts!

Well done for coming over Tegam! It's a good place to be... I find it pretty hard to discuss this pg with anyone who hasn't "been there" which includes MIL and SIL. It's hard.
Thanks Audax and Hi!


Reading all your posts reminded me of just how tough this journey is.... and the fear is so palpable g, the misery. It does get less intense as the pregnancy progresses, or at least it did for me. It's still hard, but less intense.

Teagm - welcome... and congratulations on your pregnancy! As you know from both the way you feel and what other people are posting, pregnancy after loss is exceptionally challenging. Try to find any way you can to get through..... you'll find the ladies here very understanding and supportive. And we don't mind if the crazy lady comes out... here is one of the safer places for her to come out. Look forward to sharing this journey with you.

AFM - I am excited - just about to head out to the hairdresser. Hoping that it will help me overcome my slump. I mean one way to feel good about yourself is to think you look good.... Am nervous about being out, but decided on balance I needed to do it. Fingers Crossed. Thanks for all your kind words of support.... I appreciate them.
Hi Dory: thanks for the welcome. Im sure you will all meet my crazy lady soon! Its nice to know there is somewhere you can just be you no matter how pretty its going to be LOL

Hope the hair dresser was as good as you hoped! Did you change styles?

Well i had my scan and no heart beat yet, they said i am too early as the egg sack only measure around 5 1/2 weeks. So again i play the waiting game. I am a little concerned as according to my dates i should be around 6 1/2 weeks. I lost my last little bub at 5 1/2 weeks and i am really scared this little one isn't going to grow anymore too.

So they are sending me back for another scan in a couple of weeks. Keeping my fingers crossed.
Hoping: i has a scan at 5weeks 4days with this bubs to check it wasnt another ectopic. They couldnt see a heartbeat and it looked smaller for dates and i knew my days were perfect! Lets just say it was a long wait til the 8week scan that showed a perfect size baby and heartbeat! I know you are worried but hang in there!

Hi Tegam!!

to all of the ladies in the early stages - it is so hard in the beginning, I know I felt miserable the whole time, and it is unfair, because we should all be feeling happy, but instead all we feel is fear. But it does get better ladies.

AFM - had another ob appt today, all going well, spud's head is down and bum up so that's good. And I talked to my ob about some aspects of my birthplan, which he is really supportive of, so I am feeling quite pleased now
Glad that the OB is supportive of your birthplan. It must be exciting for you to be at that stage of the pregnancy!


AFM: In just one day i have become an emotional wreak! I feel weak and ashamed that i have lost all faith so easily in this little bubba. I think ill be better after my scan next week. Will be almost 13weeks and just need to see bubs happy! Lucky poor DH is away until monday night, i dont think the poor man needs to be around me when i am so emotional! LOL... Hope you are all well and thank you for the welcome.

Hey quick question, when did or will you all start to tell people you are having a baby? I have so many people close to me that were so supportive of my Ectopic at the start of the year that i feel like i am letting them down not telling them that i have fallen again. I mean people know we are trying but i just cant face talking about it just. Like if i keep it to myself it can just be my little dream... But i know there is a point that is too late to tell people, what do you all think?