Kellie - So far I'm just ignoring those who stare at his cast. He's still perfect to me! And don't even get me started on Mum, lol. What a waste of time
that was! I got NO rest, and she complained the whole time about how much pain SHE was in because she's old. Pfffffttttt. Hello, major surgery and trauma
plus adjusting to being a mother, vs your sore arm. WTF. She even managed to make my hospital stay about her, saying she hasn't been sleeping properly
since. Omg if she knew half of what happened (I tried to tell her but she doesn't listen to a word I say and rambles with her own lame stories about her
cat) she would never sleep again. I'm counting down to the day when Axel gives me a proper gummy smile, and sleeps more than 2 seconds at a time lol.
I'm sending you labour vibes and hoping for a beautiful birth for you and your little one. How exciting, things seem to be happening for you! Oh, and don't
even get me started on pre-labour... lol. We all remember my ongoing saga. Ridiculous!! FX things happen soon and you can have your baby boy snuggles. I must
say I'm enjoying mine. When he's not screaming, lol.

Cheezelmonster - You'd be surprised how strong we can be in times of crisis. I have a good feeling about this pg for you, you're taking this baby home!!
Just remember though, the power of the mind is often underestimated. Stay as positive as you can and take things one day at a time. I know it sounds cheesy
but it hasn't failed me yet. Good luck for your scan, and please try not to be afraid. If you must, answer those hard questions you're asking yourself. "what
if there's nothing there?" Then you will grieve, and we will be here to hold your hand. Don't forget to ask yourself the other questions too though: like
"what if everything goes perfectly?". There's no reason you can't have a happy and healthy pg. I have everything crossed for you, hun. Stay strong!

Dory - Well said. I have moments where I feel ripped off I had to have a c/s for Axel, then I kick myself as I know I should just be thankful he's here
at all. Then of course all the other stuff that happened........ I wonder why me? A friend of mine was telling me last night how her friend gave birth
to her baby 2 weeks before I did at the same hospital, and all went perfectly. I'm glad they don't make these kind of mistakes with everyone...... but
WOW. Why did they save all the cr** for me? I'm a good person, but also a believer of karma. What did I do to bring this upon myself, I wonder?


Melster - Just wanted to offer you a Things do seem to happen all at once, I totally understand that feeling. The only advice I can offer you is
to try to take a few minutes a day to clear your mind. Put it all aside, and just breathe. Have a bubble bath if you can.. anything. I hope you and your
family do get the quality time with your Dad. And to answer your question, yes, I will be making a formal complaint to the hospital about my treatment.

T-Hopes - It was pretty awful, but I suppose I can't cry about it forever. I'm trying to pick myself up, dust myself off and keep going but I do have my
moments still. Yes, mum was useless, offensive.... totally inconsiderate and rude. Ok she bought me some nice things, but that doesn't make it ok to treat
us like cr**. DP was irritated that she didn't make any effort to speak to him or get to know him, he decided after meeting her he would avoid her at all
costs and that worked well for us. We've also decided never to bother going to visit her, or to invite her back again. Axel doesn't need her toxic
influence in his life. She has nothing to offer except random cash. She thinks that's enough. I really hope your 'little kidney' (lol) hangs in there
for you. Come on, little kidney! Does the dr not want you going past 38wks because of your kidney issue? 31 weeks already, wow.. so exciting. I miss the excitement of the last few weeks of pregnancy!

Alish - Yay for the chest of drawers Hang in there, you'll be on mat leave before you know it. Don't worry about the crying, it only gets worse when you're
postnatal, lol. DP was shocked how easy it was to make me cry. He told me some friends at work said they were praying for me, and I burst into tears. He
walked into the room when I was in hospital and said it was good to see me looking so much better, and yep, you guessed it..... I cried. LOL. You're right,
pg is all bloating and crying etc but I think it's still graceful. And such a wonderful time. Sometimes I want to rewind and do it again because that was the time
BEFORE all the sh** hit the fan.

Possum magic - Tell me about it....... I never have been super lucky but this one takes the cake Mum has gone home now so I'm feeling a lot
better without her hovering around complaining and accomplishing nothing. Oh and Champion is an understatement. I don't know what I would do without my DP.
He's done things I would never ask any man to do... including learning how to express milk for me using the hand pump when I was too tired to move. He changes
the dressings on my c/s wound, he cooks and cleans, he gets up during the night to Axel, and he goes to work all day. I can't explain how much my love for him has deepened after all of this. Maybe this stuff was meant to happen
and we were meant to be challenged like this so we would appreciate eachother more? I don't know. Oh and thanks, lots of people are saying they love Axel's name,
I'm really chuffed because I was worried people would think it's too weird. lol. If you ask me though it's a cute baby name, but one that'll grow with him and
become a strong name when he's a man. I'm so glad you had a good 20wk scan, that one was the best for me, IMO. I'll second Kell's question, did you find out the sex?
I hope you're feeling better tomorrow, sounds to me like you were just very nervous and stressed out.


Damprye - Ikwym. I felt like my pg flew by, and I just wanted to savour the moment if that made sense. Even at the end when things were getting uncomfortable,
I just wanted to keep him inside a little longer. That's why I ended up being 10 days overdue.... I didn't want to rush to get him out, despite my horrible
pre-labour going on for a week............... I just loved being pg that much. I'm glad I did it the way I did, afterall being pg is the easy part I now realise, lol.
How are things with you?? Good to hear you're having a 'surprise', I really enjoyed that part. It was the best feeling when they held Axel up and I got to
announce 'IT'S A BOY!!!' DP cried so much, it was the most lovely moment and I'll never forget it. I don't think there is a list happening ATM, but I have Axel's
D.O.B on my sig. Please don't worry about letting your bub down because of your immune system. You don't control that! You're doing the best you can. I was unable
to keep b/fing as my milk dried up with the stress I was under. I was distraught at first, but then remembered that I was just lucky to be alive. Suddenly the
bottle didn't seem like such a crime.

Chesire - Around the 15 week mark is when I felt flutters, don't worry, you'll be sure of what's going on before long! It's so hard to know if you're really feeling
them or just wanting to if that makes sense. Hang in there

Tegam - Wow, what an honour.. I'm so jealous

AFM - Well, the plot thickens! The hospital called me last night about Axel's hearing test. The stupid woman had no idea what was going on. First she said she couldn't
find his record, and asked if he had the test done. I said yes, they took him away to do it while I finalised my discharge. She asked why I wasn't there to
see it done, I snapped at her that I was trying to get the hell out of there after the shocking treatment I received, and didn't have time to go and hang out
in the nursery. She says she doesn't know if he had the test done or not. I got really angry. "So, what? Did he have it done or not? Do the m/w's not know
wtf is going on?? Can my son hear or not? Did they do the test, or do they not know if they did it or WHAT?!" She went rather quiet. I told her I was DISGUSTED
with the hospital, I was mistreated and mismanaged, and now they're stuffing up my son's care? I don't think so!!! She then confessed to me that she has a note in
front of her to tell her that they didn't do the hearing test (I have no idea why) and that they didn't want to upset me by telling me at the time. Great. So now they're
witholding information about Axel, IMPORTANT information, because they said I was 'delicate'. Of course I was f*****g delicate you morons! You would be too! Anyway, my
point is why didn't they tell DP?? He's the father, and has a right to know what's happening as much as I do. Couldn't he have made the decision whether or not
I would react badly to being told? Honestly, it's a load of cr** anyway... they didn't care enough to allow me to sleep, and kept me up for 40 hours straight, so why the
bloomin heck (lol, couldn't think of anything less offensive) didn't they just tell me what was happening with my baby boy??? I'm absolutely LIVID with these
people. How dare they not keep me informed. How dare they make decisions regarding my son's care without consulting either of us. And HOW DARE THEY continue to
drag this out by waiting 2 weeks after I was discharged to call me and let me know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where's the exploding head emoticon???

Phew. I feel better now. Seriously though, I am going to bust a cap in someone's a** if they don't get their act together. NOBODY messes with my baby boy.
And after what happened, nobody messes with me, either, dangit!

Excuse me while I run screaming into the night............................................