Hi Girls! Once again i have left it too long so this is going to be a looong post!

Damprye- Yay for announcing on fb! I hope there hasnt been any negativity and if there has... DELETE!

Alish- Ooooh only a few days til u hit the magic 12 week mark! Woohoo! Did u get ur bt done? What day is ur scan??

T-Hopes- Hows ur back??? And a big woohoo for doing some more baby shopping!! Ur alot more organised then i am! Oh and im glad im not the only waxer here.. i honestly cant imagine not getting a brazilian done.. i wld hate to have to maintain it myself! I actually started a thread on braz waxing.. it turned out to be pretty funny! https://www.bellybelly.com.au/forums...rrrrrr-146904/

Clairesmummy- Hope the weekend wasnt too bad and that u have a safe trip home.

Mildez- Hows things with dh?? improving?? Hope u got some well deserved rest this weekend.

Hi Tegam!

Kell- Woohoo for us being the BIG 30 WEEKS!!! 3/4 down, just a quarter to go!! Its very very exciting. Lets hope time goes quickly!

Ferrals- I cant believe u might be able to have a vag. birth! That is excellent news! But if not atleast there shldnt be any complications since ur placenta has moved off the cervix. And 17 days! Yay! Will u be doing the castor oil trick this time if u can have a vag. birth??? I will be so tempted to do it.. but i just dont think i'd be able too!

Dory- Oh how exciting that u are ttc already!!! Little HB must be a little angel for u to be wanting to so soon! Im hoping there isnt too much of a gap between ours.. im just a bit worried about how im going to cope with one tho! Sorry to hear of ur bfn.. its going to be hard since u havent had an af yet.. i know after my m/c i went thru about 50 hpts hoping i was pg! Wishing u all the luck in the world for ur ttc journey!

Melster- How was ur weekend?? Are u feeling a bit more positive now?

Cheshire- Woohoo for hearing and seeing that beautiful little hb!!! U need to make a ticker!

Forshelby- Hmmm have no idea what ur weird spots cld be?! Are they still there?? I really cant believe u are SO CLOSE to popping!!! U are full term tomoro hey! I think 37 wks is considered full term?! When is ur next drs appointment??

Angelfish- Aww poor little Honor.. hope u can find a better formula for her.

Hi Kit! Little Sammy is one month old! Wowee! Bet the things he does get cuter and cuter everyday!

Indias mum- I hope ur m/s has started easing off again and u had a good book to read since u had to spend the weekend in bed!

Hi to anyone i have missed!

AFM- Had a kinda busy weekend.. scrubbed some more walls.. it makes the biggest difference having clean walls! I just sit down and admire them! I cant wait til i can walk thru our whole house and just see that everything is clean all around me! I also mowed our lawn.. what a mission that is! I ended up with blisters on my hands cos the grass was so long and difficult to get the mower thru it! DH isnt home for another week tho so it really had to be done... i love looking out and seeing it all mowed tho.. it makes it all worth it!

Now who wants to hear what my latest little panic attack is over?! I just havent been able to get it out of my head today that something is going to be wrong with our baby when its born. Im so over this worrying business! I feel like i get over one fear for another one to just pop up! Its neverending! I have really started worrying that i have breathed in too many chemicals during this pregnancy. I havent had that much exposure to chemicals but i have cleaned the bathroom and toilet etc. weekly and done a few other bits and pieces. Or what happens if there is a chromosomal problem with our baby. This is going to sound really really awful but i dont know if i cld handle having a child with a disability. I have a cousin with cerebal palsey and so does dh. He also has a step brother that is severely disabled. Dh has about 15 cousins with perfect little kids.. i just keep thinking what happens if we are the 'chosen' ones to go down the disability path. Im sorry if i am offending anyone.. i know its terrible of me to have these thoughts Im sure i wld love our baby regardless and learn ways to manage but i just want a healthy little baby.
Its so frigging ridiculous of me to be thinking like this.. everything has been perfect so far.. and this little baby hasnt stopped kicking around all day.. its like its trying to reassure me that everything is going to be ok! Hopefully i can get over this little fear quicksmart! Sorry to be a downer. I will wake up more positive tomoro i promise!

Nite nite xxx