Angelfish - I'm wondering if there's more to it than just seeing the birthing suite....... I just feel strange.

T-Hopes - That is a weird coincidence! I hope you felt fab after your trip to the salon... last time I went I was only 16 weeks pg! So WAY too long ago. I thought Axel was a pretty cute name, and it grows with them too hehe.

Tegam - It's not that I didn't like the feel of the room... it was quite nice really. The lights were low and they had some cheesy 'relaxing' music playing, It's hard to describe the vibe it gave me. have fun camping! lol...

Alish - Thanks hun, I'm sure everything will be fine I'm just being panicky. Oh and how's this for freaky........ DP bought us a liberty wagon last year when we started TTC because I only had a 2 door lancer. crazy co-incidence there!! How nice are those liberties though.. mmmm. Ours is only a 2004 model so not super new but WOW the difference in quality from my old lancer to this is huge.

Reet - Yeah! The Dr actually TOLD me what the issue was, saying how he had to see this patient again after she went to someone else for months and I quote: "she has every problem under the sun and now I have to start all over again with her". I was gobsmacked. If I had the money to pay to see someone else I would probably consider it. I guess we all have our bad days, but I was surprised he was so... candid with me. I think my bowling ball is getting a LOT heavier because I got up to pee about 6 times last night instead of the usual 2 or 3. It's getting so hard to get up and out of bed on my own, and actually hurts most of the time now. But I'm trying not to complain about it.... I wanted this so badly. The hospital room wasn't terribly sterile or anything, it actually looked kinda nice but I think it's just the reality of it all is right in my face now. I can actually visualise what's going to happen and where....... it makes it a lot more confronting. The staff I met were really nice though so that's a huge plus. Ikwym about feeling like there's a ton of stuff to do but not having the motivation to do it. I still have a few things that need doing but I just can't seem to drag myself off the bed or couch to do anything. Just cooking dinner is a challenge right now. I am DEFINITELY feeling ready to have this baby now. Even though there's stuff to be done, I'm just getting anxious and uncomfortable and kinda want my body back. But then I flip flop on the issue and think, ohhh.. but I won't get to feel those kicks anymore, and I won't have my belly anymore... lol it's good that it's coming to an end but also kinda makes me sad. Thanks for the laugh with the creamy CM story.. lol. I can't say I've had much of a problem with it at all................ up until nowish. LOL. Make sure you get yourself those books really soon to help pass the time until DH gets home. I guess having your SIL there will help, but still...... you can show him all the stuff you've learned hehe.

Ferrals - That's so great you have Ella's discoing on video..... you can show her when she's older, I bet she'll love it! I too would be torn by wanting to meet the baby early and also having the natural birth...... it's a tough choice! I guess luckily it's left up to fate so whatever will be will be. Oh and PMSL I can't believe you call pads surfboards too! I'm actually dreading having to use one as I am a strictly tampons kinda girl. Way TMI there but hey, at least I'm not talking about a smoodgy vag. Also, I must ask....... don't you feel all exposed in a G-string?? I can't wear them cause I feel like my butt cheeks are wobbling all over the place and people will know. LOL. I hate being a budget head too right now, especially since DP f****d it last weekend. I have heard a dental infection could cause prem labour.... can't remember how or why though. And how spesh are you getting a double RAK?! Of course you deserve it, you're somewhat of a superwoman in my eyes........... it's about time some good stuff came your way, and it looks like it's happening! (DH getting some casual work, your placenta moving a bit, your dad helping out etc...) Things are finally looking up for you Bring on more good luck for Ferrals!

Mildez - Cute guinea pig babies! I bet your DD was thrilled Amen on the hideous undies........ I got myself a week's supply of very DARK coloured very LARGE knickers.

Kellie - I'm in the hospital part, I never did hear from the BC when I asked way back in the beginning of this pg.... I figure it's partially because of my paperwork being so fricken screwed up and being posted all over the place except to MY HOUSE. LOL. Ahhh well, too late to complain now. I think you can start raspberry leaf tea at 35 weeks.

India's Mum - Congrats! That's fantastic news. It's so relieving to see a strong HB. Looks like the odds are in your favour, hun.

AFM - Well, I feel strange. I don't think depressed is the word............. I just feel out of sorts and vaguely annoyed at everything. I don't like looking at that pile of washing to be folded, but I don't want to fold it! The dishes need doing but I couldn't be bothered. After taking DP to work this morning I crawled back into bed with my breakfast, and didn't get up again until 12.30. I'm feeling so sleep deprived, the last week it's been getting worse and worse, and rolling over HURTS. I don't want to be the whinging complainy pregnant woman, but wow...... GET YOUR FOOT OUT OF MY RIBS, BABY! lol. To top things off I feel like I'm coming down with the flu or something... my throat hurts, I had a headache earlier, and I just feel generally irritated. Kinda reminds me of PMS (though I never had it like this).

I do have my moments though..... for the last few days I've felt all my excitement etc just draining away into nothingness and was starting to worry what was going on with me. I think it's just the whole last couple of weeks moodiness. I did have a fleeting 10 second moment of excited anticipation today though, so I think I'm just finally experiencing some of the awesome things hormones can do to you. Up until now I've felt 100% normal and like myself, but just this week I can feel something changing, and I can't put my finger on it. Vague, confused, hard to concentrate............... ouchy pains down there....... is it wrong to say that I want my body back now? But if I say that, that means my pg will be over, and I will be *gulp* responsible for this tiny human being. On the outside!

I think I'm having a last-minute freakout. I guess I'm entitled to mine since DP had his last weekend......... pity it had to destroy our budget though and I'm now left having to try to fix everything up. It's not like I can go out and waste our money getting absolutely obliterated and then pass it off as a 'last hurrah'. Well, that's just GREAT for you, Pal.. but how are we going to pay our bills now? Oh, and when I casually mentioned that thanks to his binge we're now "f****d", his response was: "OK, I get it, I f****d it!". Pfffffftttt!!! Don't get cranky with me, Mister, you're the one who selfishly went out and blew all that cash without even warning me. Now how are you going to afford time off with me and the baby??. Now I'm pretty much on my own, for lack of a better term: left holding the baby. Why do I always have to be perfect and responsible and 100% in control, but you can have your little spaz outs and I'm supposed to just accept that. If I did cr** like this I'd be SINGLE. You'd leave me so fast, because you deserve so much better. But I don't.

Ok, getting out of here now I'm having a disjointed rambly pg moment lol.