WBM- It doesn't matter if we are pregnant or not, we all mourn our angels and you are right to share with us, that is what we are here for.
Funny you should say about barely getting anything ready and thoughts about not bringing bub home cos I am the same. Almost everything I do have, is what I used for DS or brought for my last angel. All I have brought for this one is pilchers, snappies and 5 outfits, 2 are 00000 and 3 0000. Going shopping tomorrow but will be laybying, my theory was so that I'd be prepared for girl or boy but there is also the whole thing of not being sure bub will be coming home and I don't want a house filled with baby stuff without my lo. Has also caused a lot of bonding issues because I just have this niggling feeling that there will not be a new addition to our family, even felt like a fraud telling people that I'm pregnant, and even at my 19wk scan, which was my 4th scan this pg, I expected for there to be no baby, that I made it all up in my mind.
You are totally not alone and your fears are justified as all of ours are. If we keep them bottled away, it just makes them eat away at us even more.
Phebee- Good luck for your scan today, will be thinking of you.
How is everyone else going?
AFM- DS was estimated to end up around 7-9lbs and I was very happy with my 8lb4oz babe TBH, I don't think this lo will be quite as big as they say it will, have been thinking for the most part that it'll be another in the 8pound range. All 3 of my Mum's kids were My tummy seems so much smaller this time though lol.
Damprye~ Congrats darl on a good scan and being able to keep baking that bub for a little while longer, awesome news darl.
WBM~ Hugs to you on your angelversay darl, it's a hard thing to overcome. I'm not looking forward to my last due date which was the 22nd of Sept. Maybe you could plant a tree or something in honour of your angel on that day. Thank you for the sticky vibes darl, I did POAS again this morning and it is still very dark and very much a BFP, POAS was followed by a horrible taste in my mouth and a feeling of wanting to be sick so Im taking that as a good thing. Never thought I could be hoping to be chucking up ever, lol.
Phebee~ Good luck at your scan today darl, hugs to you for your nervousness, I totally understand how you feel. Be thinking of you today and sending lots of sticky vibes to you.
AFM~ Did another POAS this morning just to make sure i am definately still PG, came through super quick and a super dark BFP thankfully. Feeling pretty yuck this morning and very exhausted as well. Off to my GP appointment in the morning, in 2 minds if I should ask for a dating scan at 6 weeks or should I just wait until I see my FS on the 18th August and he will be doing a scan to check everything out anyhow.....ohhh the decisions already......Thinking that if I wait and just have the one with my FS at least bub would/should have a good strong HB by then, I will be 7wks 6 days PG when I see my FS......Any thoughts?
Damp i'm doing ok. Can't believe i only have 10wks or less till i meet my little girl.
I flat out refuse to go over, not that i have much choice lol
CM i think if you can hold off till your FS appt then you should do that. It will be a lot better seeing a strong healthy HB, than possibly not seeing one as your too early.
Phebee good luck for today, i have everything crossed your little one is super active today.
WBM
I was the same with Bambi till about 2 weeks ago when i slowly started buying her little things, i started off buying her 2 outfits from the baby market.
Then my friend brought me a nappy bag & another friend brought me some cute clothes for her. MIL started buying boxes of nappies.
Everyone else didn't doubt i would be bringing home a little baby it was only me who refused to get attached in case something happened.
Last weekend i even went and got her some blankets & clothes that DD1 picked out for her.
It's taken me almost 30wks but i'm finally really excited about this pregnancy & i'm even starting to sort through baby clothes so i can start packing her bag & make a list of what other things i still need to get her.
You'll find your Shine, it will just take time
Hi everyone sorry I've been a bit quiet its been so busy here.
Anyways I'm 11 weeks tomorrow and so worried about miscarriage still. I've wanted this for so long and now its actually happening I'm scared its going to be ripped away from me.
I have my NT scan next week and im so nervous. I haven't had any more bleeding. Just really nervous. Any suggestions to shake this feeling.???
Thank you girls. You all brought tears to my eyes. I really don't feel alone when I read in here and that's a very good thing to have. I did buy a couple of romper suits in a Target sale, but they're in with all the other baby gifts I have for my friends' babies between now and then.
I might go out on 5 August and buy new baby a guardian angel to look over her. The baby who had to pass so she could come into our family will always be looking out for her. It's funny saying her so often, I avoid it so I wont slip!
But DS is demanding Mummy at the moment (he's still the absolute light of my life). Poor boy, not well, this will be my 4th pooey nappy today, and he's ready for a sleep. I might have a sleep too, I'm knackered.
WBM: IKWYM, i've also felt so tentative about this pg. Even now, i can't believe there will be a baby in this house in 2.5wks! It doesn't seem real. Even after i passed the first trimester i didn't feel safe like I did with DD. I was scared i'd get further than the last two times only to have something worse happen. FOr a long time when i talked about the baby i'd say 'if' or other things to show I wasn't counting on things working out. I am now talking about the baby more definitely but it feels surreal...
Damprye: IKWYM, I also felt like a fraud telling people I was pregnant for a long time. At work i said very little about it and sort of let people figure it out for themselves. So about 22wks when my tummy was a lot more preggy looking a whole bunch of people said to me: oh, so you are pregnant. I had nightmares about telling everyone i was pregnant and then having to tell them i wasn't (if something went wrong).
Pheebee: I hope all went well today and you had happy news.
LysnDan: I hope the next week flies past for you so you can get happy scan news too.
AFM: Just had a mind-blowing thought: i've been pregnant for part of each year since 2007! (DD then two m/c then this baby!)
In other news: baby is giving me some whopper kicks in the side now. Strong enough to make me jump! Ouch! but I love it. It's reassuring. Having said that, i will not miss being pregnant: i think i've been too stressed by past experiences to enjoy the pg the way i did with DD. THough I smile when baby kicks and talk to it a bit, and I love 'chasing' it's foot around my belly with my hand and giving it a little tickle, i just want the baby out and safe and well.
Scan was lovely! Everything is going well Baby is 6cm long and measuring 12w 3d although by my careful date records it should be just 12 wks lol. Baby kept moving and stuff and looked like it was waving, it was so cute! Heartbeat is good at 172bpm. YAY!!!! Thanks so much for all your prayers and well wishes!
as far as trying to get out the nervus its very hard i just had Honor in jan and got pg right away as you all know and i am still scared everyday and everytime that i go to the drs. I did not start to get things for her until i was 32 weeks (honor) even then i was doughtful. Its very hard when you have had loss's in the past not to be scared.
AFM~ i go in every two weeks to make sure everything is okay hard to belive going on 17 weeks
Angelfish- Thanks and congrats on your almost 17weeks Feeling bub yet or still to come?
Phebee- Woohoo for the awesome scan It is awesome to see them all safe and wriggly in there with their lil hearts pumping away
PM- OMG! So soon? Wowza, that is fantastic! Can't wait to see your BA. Anytime now really
WBM- That's what we're here for hun
Lys- I don't think there is much anyone can do to stop the nerves except just to try and relax. It is always so scary going for scans but seeing them there is a great feeling.
Cheshire- Wow, 3quarters of the way there Not too much longer to go
Clairesmummy- POAS all you want if that is what it takes to get you through till your appt I'd say to wait to see your FS myself. It would hurt to be sent away without knowing if your baby is actually growing or not and that is a chance that you would have to take if you were to go get an early referral. Sometimes they just can't see tiny lil bub in the sac so soon. By the time you see your FS, you should get to see your little one's heart pumping away
AFM- Totally want to share this with all of you.
If you look up "35week pregnant belly" posted by Damprye on the tube, you can see how desperate bub usually is in his/her continous efforts to escape lol. This is seriously how much bub moves all night and day haha.
Who needs malteasers with a belly like mine?
PM - how weird is it being pregnant for that long! I've been pregnant part of every year since 2009, but that's nowhere near as impressive - although I've been pretty good at containing an entire pregnancy in a year It's good for the safety net
phee - that's awesome news on your scan! I hope you're able to relax a bit now you're passed the point of your last angel I love seeing them all nestled safely and happily wriggling away in there!
angel - glad everything's going well for you - are you finding out the sex of your baby?
Clairesmummy - I agree with Damp, wait until your FS appt, then you know you'll see a heartbeat and not be worried if you don't see one at 6w. Sounds like he's a great FS!
Damp - I had a look, how cool is that bit I loved watching my belly with DS, I've seen a few bumps with kicks so far, and can't wait for that alien like movement
afm, I feel awful, I haven't been this sick in DS's lifetime I'm feeling a bit better now than when I woke up, but I was up every 1.5-2 hours to go to the loo, have a drink and blow my nose so I didn't knock the house down with snoring. The sooner I can get my nose fixed, the better (there isn't much room in my sinuses).
Thanks everyone i think i felt tiny movement. I dont know about finding out the sex with this one i think i might want to make it a surprise. But i found out today that my scan is on the 11th of august three weeks away time is going to go so slow. Bf got a notice though the mail that he is behind in child support which is wrong. But they want to take out 800 a month till he is paid up he usally pays 500 a month. I am so upset last time i was pregnat this type of stuff came up before everything was quiet.
Wannabeamum~ i hope you feel better soon hun
Damprye~ I was on best rest around that time with Honor and i remmber just laying there and watching my belly move it was the highlight of my day
well i have been dragged into this thread kicking and screaming by clairesmummy(lol), don't get me wrong im thrilled to be here but after 3 previous miscarriages i am very wary of putting it out there that im pregnant again and kept putting off posting "just in case" it all went wrong again.
i have had 3 blood tests and the numbers have been going up well, i will have one more either sat or monday and then a scan next week, im already nervous about having that. i have had a m/c at 9 weeks and 2 chemical m/c's at 5 weeks. this is a clomid pregnancy and im on progesterone pessaries until 12 weeks, fingers crossed this is a sticky baby for us, we have a DD and DS (5 & 3)
Angelfish- I'm supposed to have been on strict bedrest from 24weeks but sometimes I just get so over it. Bub kicking is one of the good things about it but this bub rarely stops moving no matter what I do lol. When you were on BR, did it cause any sleeping issues? Arg, it would be so aggrivating to have that happen, especially with bub on the way and needing to buy stuff for your baby instead of paying for what is most likely just a stuff up.
JJ- It is so easy to get clucky hey lol.
PM- So glad bub is in the right position for you now.
CM- Hope your lump is nothing major. Have they considered that it could be an infected lymph node? My Sister got one after scratching at an insect bite on her neck a bit like how you described yours as. No matter what it is though, make sure to keep it clean and to go in if you even think it is getting larger. Glad your appt went well besides that.
MM- Glad to see you in here, I remember you from another thread Keep that positive attitude up hun.
Cheshire- Mine is still going fast but has slowed down a lil. I think it is because almost everything is ready enough and now I'm just waiting for bub to arrive. I keep looking at the stuff and getting excited and thinking, "Ok, now I just need time to hurry up so you can use it bub" lol.
WBM- Hope tou feel a lot better soon.
AFM- Today was awesome. So sick, sore and exhausted, but worth it. My day went a bit like this: DS deciding 6am was a good time to come wake me, so we had breakfast, played and sung songs till it was time to get ready for daycare. Picked up a huge box of fundraiser chocolates to sell from the daycare, sold most of them in about an hour lol. Went baby shopping... 10 till 3:30.... All just baby shopping LOL. Picked up DS, went and done MORE shopping. Left DS with XDP at mine while I met up with a couple girlfriends for dinner at my fav resturant, went back to my besties to hang out for a lil.... Then got home at ~9:30. All up until then, I had a fantasic day. Spent about one and a half grand all up on me, bub and DS. Was so awesome to be able to do that
... Then I got home...
Now it has been pouring rain suddenly off and on all day. I had my arms full of new and expensive baby stuff, knocked on the door for about 10mins, juggled everything around to try and unlock the door, only to find that XDP had bolted it and had DS up after 9:30 with the surround sound system blaring in my unit. Right then I got real angry, more so than when I was just standing there banging. I started booting the door and yelling. Finally he let me in. And I tell him that he shouldn't have bolted me out of my own house and that I was banging for the last 10mins. I didn't even say it in a ****y tone. Then stands in my way and he goes nutso at ME for telling him off and it was at that point that I couldn't hold onto everything anymore, start dropping **** and then I get ****y back at him and tell him that he was the one that locked me out and left me standing in the wet with a heap of stuff and with my boot still open in the rain, with more stuff in and my boot light on with a car battery that has to be jump started recently. Nope, he can't even think of how maybe that, or anything else could warrant me being at all entitled to telling him that I wasn't happy about him locking me out of my house (he lives elsewhere) and just stomps around cracking the ****s and ranting.
He keeps pulling this whole "hurt" BS whenever he is here and I am so over it. I asked him one day to leave (had already been here a week) because he said he had gotten gastro and I didn't want that around me, bub or DS, even with me telling him that if I caught it, it could kill bub. He left alright, but not before making a huge scene about it like now. I have more than valid reasons for what I have said to him and his only reason for acting the way he does is because the world is against him so I must be making a personal attack on him no matter what I say or for whatever reason. The life of my baby and over a grands worth of brand spanking new posessions is worth nothing to him it seems. And he is the one that wanted me back! Both XDP's are fighting for me and they are both selfish fn aholes that I want nothing to do with. Only reason I talk to either right now is because it is good for the kids to have their Fathers in their lives. DS is at that age where he knows who he is and when he isn't around and even asks for him. If it wasn't in the best intrest of my kids, I'd tell them both where to go right now.
My night is ruined, I don't feel comfortable in my own house (XDP is staying till Sat morning) and I just don't know what to do. I feel like curling up in bed with just my pillows and teddy but have to find the motivation to tidy up so that the carpet cleaner can come tomorrow. I just don't want to do anything with XDP here.
Sorry about my big rant but I am so upset and it doesn't help that the stress makes me all tense and it makes my belly cramp. Looking forwards to Saturday big time!
Oh Damp - that is such an awful way to spend the evening! Does he live a long way away? I reckon it's about time to say "it's too late in this pregnancy for you to stay with me any more, it increases my stress levels which is not good for the baby, if you'd like to visit and your house is too far away, perhaps you could ask (INSERT NAME HERE)". I wouldn't want him around at the moment - it's no good for anyone Big to you chicky
CM - I hope the lump is nothing, it's always worth getting these things checked out though - sounds like you've got a really thorough GP which is awesome
Welcome MM! Glad to see you in here, it's a hard jump isn't it Wishing you a happy and healthy 7 1/2 months (that's all you've got left)
PM - Glad to hear bubs has gotten into the right position must be a relief!
I'm feeling a bit better than yesterday morning, but still feeling bloody awful! I think we'll be off to kindergym, DS needs some energy released, but I wont be picking up anyone else's kids today!
The_Mrs- What are you hoping for or have a feeling towards?
WBM- He lives a while away, about an hours drive with my driving. There is nowhere else I trust him to have him which is also why when I'm in hossy, he will be at mine with DS. He also doesn't seem to get that there are legitimate reasons for me saying that and would probably just crack it then not see DS for months again not caring that it is his son that he is hurting and that will eventually grow uup to hate him for constantly doing so to him.
Good idea with your LO, makes them so much easier to deal with when you're sick hey.
AFM- GOT SOME SLEEP!!! Made me feel so happy to get more than an hour or two every 24hrs. More bad news though. All my power points are out and I'm having chest and throat issues. Waiting at the drop in clinic atm and my chest feels hell tight. XDP is still being an idiot. Cracked it with me when I refused to let him touch the fuse box even after I told him that I had informed my landlord and that it will get me kicked out if he touches it. Tried to tell me noone would know... Um I already told my landlord what has happened so obviously they would know *rollseyes* d!ck.
Bub is putting a smile on my face though, so loving feeling bub wriggling in there waiting for the doc
How are you travelling along?
TBH, I don't think this lo will be quite as big as they say it will, have been thinking for the most part that it'll be another in the 8pound range. All 3 of my Mum's kids were
I'm feeling a bit better now than when I woke up, but I was up every 1.5-2 hours to go to the loo, have a drink and blow my nose so I didn't knock the house down with snoring. The sooner I can get my nose fixed, the better (there isn't much room in my sinuses).
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