well i've slipped back into depression today.... we saw our OB this morning and he has said that an elective c/s is the best way to go for this baby (i had an emergency c/s with our first child, and was hoping for a VBAC for this baby - i even sought out a OB who is well known for his pro-VBAC reputation and extremely low c/s rate). sigh, i feel terrible. the only reason for an elective c/s is that the paediatric cardiologists work 9am-5pm monday to fridays, hence just in case the baby needs emergency care at the very start, they need for it to be born at a convenient time. i know it is best for the baby but i still havent come to terms with the feelings of failure from my first c/s. and if we have any more kids, it will have to be another c/s. it is depressing to know that i will never in my life experience a natural birth

and add to this that i found out today that our private health insurance will not cover the baby as it has a congenital condition - there is a 12 month waiting period. ARGHH

i'm so sick of bad news!!!!! but as my hubby said - we have chosen the path with more complications, so we're just going to have to get used to them

i am not liking the world right now