I hoped for a boy, mostly because of my relationship with my mother, so when we found out at 18 weeks Jazz was a girl I cried and went through the worst disappointment I'd even felt... i had hoped for a boy, and the fear I felt about having a girl was almost overwhelming... I felt a lot of shame for the disappointment I felt, but you can't help what you feel and hope for. I did truly wonder how I would be able to mother a girl... I know with time I accepted it more, and I remember laying on the operating table during the c/s and thinking "OMG what am I going to do if its a boy?!?!?", so I had done a huge 180! Now i can't imagine it any other way... As long as you are honest with yourself anf let yourself grieve if thats something you need to do, or at least let yourself feel, you'll get through it. You can love your baby :hugs: xxxxx