Jas- I know it's not that he has my best interests at heart. We have talked long and hard about this. He knows the risks associated with this disease and he still wants a natural. He knows that i go into panic attacks everytime i think about the possibility that my bub will get what i've got. He knows all this, and yet he is still pushing me into a natural birth, even though it's honestly from the bottom of my heart not what i want.

I can't call that having my best interests at heart. I call that being selfish. He already has a daughter. He got to do the whole father at the natural birth thing with his ex.
Thats good that that was what she wanted and was comfortable with. But not me.
And him pushing me into something i don't want to do is really making me hate him.

If i hadn't already discussed with him how i feel time and time again, i wouldn't be acting like this. But i have, and now i'm simply going to do what i feel is best for me and my baby. Bugger what he thinks.

Misty- Come and beat some sense into him for me please!!!