I was really nervous and actually terrified of labour...my first was a c/s with no labour. We did a hypnobirthing course which helped me so much! I did get a bit apprehensive again about a month out as it was becoming more real, but I continued to do my relaxation excercises and that got me through. I ended up having the most wonderful experience and Oskar was born in 3 1/2 hours. I think personally that you would benefit from something like this as it does address your fears and how to deal with them which is most of the battle won All the best!!!!