Thank you all sooo much for your thoughts and information. It really does mean the world to me.

After we found out yesterday, we spent some time with my close family, getting their thoughts and just letting it sink in. We talked about what it might be like to have a child with downs and also what would happen if we decided to terminate.

I cried so hard and so did my partner. I never want to see him in that much pain again, it was soo hard not to be able to make it better.

TMI following-
I thought about what it would be like to have the termination- i would be induced but what would happen then? Would i hold the baby till she passed? do they drug them? Would she come out alive? Would i have a funeral for her and ask everyone to love and remember her after what i had done? All the while she was rolling around and giving me a good kicking! At first i just wished she would stop kicking and moving so i could stop thinking about how happy and healthy she is in there- apart from the downs. Tim kept putting his hand on my tummy and telling how much he loved her and how beautiful she is. That was the hardest thing. Also, thinking that once she had come out (if we decided to terminate) i knew for a fact that i was going to be screaming for all the help in the world to keep her alive but it would be too late.

So, we love our little girl, our families love her and no matter what the test shows she is going to be a part of our lives. We know we couldnt go thru with it and the more we all talk about it we cant see it as a good enough reason to let her go so soon.

I dont know what its going to be like. I have no clue, i think im going to feel really sad for her at times and ill want to protect her from the world- but dont we all want to do that for our babies?

We have such a strong relationship and an amazing family to help us thru whatever comes our way. Our mind is made up, there wasnt much of a decision to make.

I love my little Abby (She has a name!)

Thank you all so much- mum and dad are here, will post after test.
xx emma