Thanks everyone.

Anna, would love to catch up. Was extremely nervous about posting this incase some "real life" peopl thought terribley of me. I just want a beautiful healthy baby. I am so freaked out that he will be taken away because he cant breath. Or taken because he is too small.... I wake up every morning in tears. I have pre existing PND which doesnt help either, and off all my meds for that.

I am feeling a bit better, and trying to concentrate on having the last few weeks of this pregnancy as happy times. As more then likely its my last. Its only my last because i couldnt handle this emotion again..

Again thank you all for your gentle kind words. I am a good person really