My hospital's policy has just changed where patients trying for VBAC have to have a standard consult with and OB at 32 weeks to discuss the VBAC etc.

So, me being nearly 37 weeks already went to see one I was referred to by my Dr who is a GP specialising in obstetrics. I knew it wasn't going to go well as soon as he walked in the room, he was so uncomfortable with my 2 year old being there and playing a tad roughly (but behaving) with some toys I took for him on the floor - but I guess that is beside the point!

Anyway he was basically anti VBAC saying that it wasn't safe for me to attempt a vaginal birth having a c/s scar as he believes this baby is going to be 7.5 - 8 pound, and going by my pelvimitry which was done in previous PG that showed my pelvis is around 2cm under average.

I am totally confused, I am due to have my baby in a few weeks time and so far I have been told by my midwives and Dr that I can attempt a VBAC no probs, that the hospital don't even use pelvimitry's anymore because they do not give a clear indication as to how much your pelvis will open up and the pelvis is measured while you are on your back which is when it is most closed - so therefore it is a medically inconclusive test. Now the OB has sent a letter to my DR saying he believes it is unsafe for me to attempt and that he will not manage my pregnancy if I decide to attempt the VBAC!

I have got an appointment with my Dr tomorrow, I don't know how much say this OB has, that if he recommends I don't have one, the hospital will say they will not take me on as a VBAC, in which case I am stuffed because no other hospital nearby to us accepts VBAC deliveries at all.

I am worried about recovering from surgery when I have a very demanding mummy's boy 2 year old at home - let alone leaving him alone for 3-4 days, he would just crumble without me! I am worried I will have the same problems that I had with my 1st c/s even though I have stated I don't want the same OB delivering Leo. and I am worried that this is going to increase my chances of PND recurring because I do still have a lot of emotional baggage re Jackson's birth.

I just don't know what to think or feel anymore