Hey Kate, I think it's good to express these things, because it's all very normal, I just think that in a way there's a wider expectation that we're just supposed to be feeling all glowy & happy in anticipation, because it's such a happy event. Which it is, but it's the great unknown as well, and until things start to happen, it's hard to feel in control of what's to come. And I definitely find this scary, control freak that I am. FWIW, I've got no idea how I'm going to cope with a second, and even worse, how I'm possibly going to love it as much as I love my DS - which I know is just my hormonal, over-it, and super emotional pregnant brain being totally irrational, but it's not always so easy to just switch it off IYKWIM.

It does all come together though (at least that's what I'm telling myself), and my experience is that it's overwhelmingly better than you can possibly imagine beforehand, although definitely not always easy.

And the other thing is that for the most part, the stories & situations that need debriefing are the ones where things go wrong, where people aren't coping etc - when things are good, there's not nearly so much to write about, so you don't tend to see this side of things so much.

I think you'll be fine though, just relax (sleep) as much as you can in the next couple of weeks now that you're on Mat leave, and make the most of the remaining "couple" time you have