Just want to say I am not taking a dig at your decision so pleeeeease don't looke at it this way, it's just my piece of insight.

The nesting phase should come naturally to you - and it often comes as body is preparing for birth. Maybe part of it is that because you have chosen Bump's arrival you don't have 'time' for your body to kick in to this instinctively. He will be born at 39 weeks - many babies aren't ready until 42 weeks, so chances are that your body just isn't kicking in yet?

I wouldn't worry about it being depression, but it is good you are on top of your moods - for now at least. A domicillary nurse and a MCHN normally visit in the first week once you are home if you are still feeling this way after birth then talk to them about it, but anxiety beforehand is also NORMAL. I have cared for little babies a lot before my DS but at 39 weeks i was terrified that i wouldn't remember how to change a nappy - but it's very simple!

Don't stress about being prepared for Bump's arrival. All you need is the bassinet in your bedroom, your boobs and some nappies. And all DH needs to do is fetch you breastpads and nipple creams and make sure you sleep when baby sleeps. The rest can happen later. You will be fine darl.