Not sure I'm ready?.....

[BekZ]

Willow - Lol..I thought you'd drop in here too.

MBear - So glad you are coping well. I had been thinking about how you were going with everything.

Jasp - Are you feeling better?

[Fleur]

Mbear you are supermum

Bekz I felt soo much better as soon as I read everyone's replies. I had been feeling bad about feeling like that iykwim? I thought I was being horrible & I was worried it would last & I wouldn't feel happy after bub got here...but yeah, reading everyone's replies made me feel at least like I wasn't on my own

Like Willow said... you remember it all so clearly...and we are in a good place now with the kids being older & more independant. (I guess that counts as a plus too though, right?)

Now I am feeling better & back to being excited BUT I am also just enjoying this time before she gets here. And I keep reminding myself that things change so very quickly. I said to DH yesterday , I think when bub is actually here I will be more upset by how quickly she is growing kwim?

So I guess I'm back to being in a good place... I can appreciate the last little bit before her arrival but I so can't wait to see her.

So big thanks again to everyone

- Willow - rock in the corner together, lol - that might just happen yet!

[missya]

Hiya Jas,

I could have written your letter, honestly I'm just the same I have an 11 year old and a 8 year old and this was a surprise baby. So I understand how huge it is to get your head around how much it will change everything. I go from being excited to terrified in seconds. Don't get me wrong 99% of the time I'm completely contented and happy then I start to panic and think of how it will turn our life upside down. I too am very happy and contented with life at the moment and dread anything upsetting that. Then I feel guilty for feeling any negative feelings towards this wee bundle except it's not negativity towards bubs just fear of the unknown I guess.
Honestly I'm all over the show at the moment, it's nice to know I'm not the only one.
All the best, Missy.

[Fleur]

Missy, it's so good to hear it's not just you isnt it?

This bub was a surprise for us too, a much longed for one on my part but I didn't think I would get it. So it was a huge adjustment mentally & emotionally to have to make.

I guess we are just being realistic, kwim? We've been there done that & know what it means. But we also know how wonderful it is so that is what I'm reminding myself of right now.

I guess we have to trust that it will all fall into place when they get here - and I am getting soo excited

Willow, Trish....how are you doing...