whats wrong with me

[*noni*e*]

ugh its getting very close to the end now... alot of my belly buddies have had or are having their babies and i am 2 days off my edd... ive been wanting this baby to come early for weeks lol willing it on waking up each day hoping it would be today... i find as it is actually getting realistically closer i am in two minds about the whole thing.. one minute i am willing things on just hoping for a little niggle or some kinda sign of things progressing but the minute i actually feel something start to happen i freak out.. i feel incredibly nervous and wonder if i will handle it when it does happen... i feel really grumpy at everyone who says anything about things to come, ppl who are just excited... and i find myself just thinking of all the things that could go wrong instead of focusing on having a healthy baby and an amazing labour experience i dnt even really know why i am posting this just needed to get it out i suppose whats wrong with me??

[Beach Mama]

Noni- there is absolutely nothing wrong with you! You have come through an amazing 9 + month experience growing your baby and you are nearly there. Its such a conflicting time - you experience every emotion during pregnancy like excitement, fear, worry, happiness, tiredness etc and as you approach birth it is no different hun! Your body was made to do this - so dont worry about handling it, you are well prepared and will know what to do as the time comes!
I know the last 3 weeks were the same for me - one minute I was excited, the next I was in denial that I was even having a baby ... just try to take it easy over the next few days, rest, take time out for you, maybe get your DP to paint your toenails, give you a foot rub or have a nice warm bath.
You are about to become a mum and there is no greater or more wonderful job in the world! Good luck over the next few days!

[ella79]

hi noni!!
there is NOTHING wrong with you!! i have been feeling very excited about the baby arriving for the last few weeks (and waking a few times every night hoping to find myself in labour!!) but in the last week or so lots of negative thoughts have also been flooding in... negative thoughts about labour and birth itself - will i be able to do it? will it be the calm birth that i've been hoping for or will it be an induced labour with horrific pain and then an emergency c/s to top it off?!! negative thoughts about the health of the baby - will it be healthy and normal? or will it be sick or intellectually disabled? what if it accidentally chokes itself on its umbilical cord and is still born?! and negative thoughts about life after the baby arrives - will i enjoy being a mum? will i grow resentful of being "stuck" at home caring for the baby 24-7? will i resent not being able to do all the normal activities that i've been doing with my friends for the last 10 years?
i think all of these thoughts are normal. it is a MASSIVE deal to become a mum for the first time, and having all of these concerns is only natural, and is a way of coming to terms with the impending responsibility of motherhood. i'm trying not to dwell too much on all of these negative thoughts that keep coming in and out of my head, and instead concentrate on the positive thoughts and be proud of my clever body for the wonderful miracle it has managed to produce. i think about how special it is that myself and my DH have created another human being, one who will rely on us, look up to us, and who we'll love inconditionally... and to get me through the labour and birth part itself just think about how well designed the female body is to birth a baby, and that if we keep calm then it shouldn't be too frightful an experience! and if worse comes to worse, then it's not the end of the world if we accept some sort of pain relief to help us through...
i'm not sure whether anything that i've said is helpful, but just wanted to let you know that you're not alone!!

[Ginger]

well, you definitely just helped me ella...i'm been feeling the same way. it is a very emotional journey we've been on and it can be overwhelming at times

[paradise lost]

Um *noni*e*, Ella and Gracie - i felt EXACTLY as you describe - grumpy, jumpy, nervous, angry, generally "over" it all, negative and like i wanted to hide under the duvet for about 8 days before i went into labour. Your time is close. Enjoy these last few days. Think of how you will feel this time next month when you are mothers with little newborns

What an exciting time - hang in there, you're nearly at the start line for a WHOLE new race

Bx

[Ginger]

thanks hoobley!! i know, i'm trying to enjoy it...but my house is messy and it's driving me crazy!!! my dog keeps finding tissues and toilet paper and shredding them all over the house!! i was crazy grumpy on the weekend and have been yelling at dp non stop. come on baby!!

[noobie]

I can vouch for the ups and downs in the these last few weeks too. I'm finding I'm very sensitive to even the tiniest innocent comments from DH.

Last night he thought out aloud that he thinks I will likely end up having to have C section - or at least will need an episiotomy because I have a small pelvis. He means well but I don't think he gets that the amazing bones and muscles down there aren't designed to get something the size of baby *into* the pelvis but can do pretty well at trying to get the baby out even if you have a small frame. I think I need to find him a good diagram to explain it. :-)

I was pretty grumpy about it and went all "Don't' you believe I can do this?" on him. I think I went a bit overboard. Ooops

I think we are allowed to be a bit irrational and psycho right now though.

[StrawberryMumma]

I felt exactly the same way too..

You do know that you will do an amazing job birthing your little one don't you?! No matter what happens you will do so well because your body is designed just prefectly to give birth..
I felt just the same way too, but when it really happens, it's brilliant! Things just happen! We need to just go along for the ride! Don't get me wrong- I'm not playing down the discomfort and plain hard work that labour brings to us but we can do it. YOU can do it! I'm serious you know!

All the best

[Leemar]

Noni- You are perfectly normal. I felt all of your feelings as well even the second time around. I am sending heaps of hugs.

[*noni*e*]

thankyou so much for the overwhelming support!! its great just knowing there are other ppl out there who feel/have felt the same and i am not a bad person for having these negative thoughts about the way things could potentially go iykwim??
ive said it so many times now what would we do without belly belly, i know i myself would have gone absolutely mad and be rocking in a dark corner somewhere by myself hahahaha...

[littleredchook]

Blame it on the hormones!! Your whole body goes haywire in these last few weeks and it's no wonder really when your body is preparing for something so huge!! I'm feeling the exact same way at the moment and was having a panic about it to my Dr who was very sympathetic and reassured me that when the big day does eventuate all the preparation you've done will pay off and you'll focus on what you have to and your body will know what to do! It's nice to be reassured of this when everything feels so out of control! I thought 3rd time round I would have been more relaxed and calm about the whole thing but I guess the hormones still run wild no matter how many times you've done it before! Goodluck with it all!

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