ugh its getting very close to the end now... alot of my belly buddies have had or are having their babies and i am 2 days off my edd... ive been wanting this baby to come early for weeks lol willing it on waking up each day hoping it would be today... i find as it is actually getting realistically closer i am in two minds about the whole thing.. one minute i am willing things on just hoping for a little niggle or some kinda sign of things progressing but the minute i actually feel something start to happen i freak out.. i feel incredibly nervous and wonder if i will handle it when it does happen... i feel really grumpy at everyone who says anything about things to come, ppl who are just excited... and i find myself just thinking of all the things that could go wrong instead of focusing on having a healthy baby and an amazing labour experience i dnt even really know why i am posting this just needed to get it out i suppose whats wrong with me??