Well it's all come apart at the seams. Something snapped in me & I just couldn't continue on miserably unhappy with my husband in denial pretending everything is fine. It was killing my soul & I was snapping at my children and crying and feeling like I was so lost.
I've temporarily moved into my parents with the kids, I've leased a house & get the keys next week. It's a relief not to be going along with my husbands denial. He now understands that I'm serious & not bluffing. We are only communicating via text. I know he's angry at me for turning his world upside down but it's gotten to the point where I need to put my own needs & feelings first, instead of his. Its upsetting & I have no idea how I will actually pack up my house and move but I just keep putting one foot in front of the other and moving forward.

I know I am making the right decision for myself, and that will flow on to my kids having a happier & better functioning mother. It's still the hardest thing I've ever had to do though.

Any words of encouragement greatly appreciated.