It is very, very lonely. Especially at first and especially with DD so young. She will grow though and start babbling, even now she listens to you very intently. It was so hard at first, the thing I missed most was not having that person to share things about DD with; when she first smiled or rolled over or someone to just discuss parenting junk with, ideas and such. It got better as she grew older and became more a "person", I know babies are people but you know, I dunno, just as her interactions grew I guess.

It is also very exhausting being a single parent, doing everything alone and there is nothing wrong with needing/wanting a break! That's normal, very normal; for all parents actually. Even now there are plenty of times I just feel like a moment to forget my Mummy pants and breathe.