Thankyou all so much God I was in a dark place last night. I can't help wondering whether things are a little worse than me just feeling blue, whether it might be PND I have my app at the GP tomorrow for my 6 week check up, so I might ask then.

My post didn't make the most sense last night...I don't have an issue with going out, new mummy or not, but I think, to have the mentality that I have atm, to want to go out and get ****faced and engage in risky behaviour, (I come from a family of addictive personalities abs know why my own triggers are), THAT is what I could not do with a NB.

Rouge, love you.

I am off to have a nice dinner with my mum. Not dancing, but it'll do nicely I even put on a new pair of skinny black jeans I've had tucked away, a nice pair of shoes and washed my hair. I feel nice, for now.