Hi HOlly,

i hope you're ok. Nope - my ex and i have separate lives and dont really speak now because of me being pregnant. i'll let him know when this little bubba girl arrives and he can choose from there but as for a relationship - no. i will always have a special feeling for the ex and will never bear him any grief - i've seen how these situations have turned out when there is grief: its not good for the mum or dad and defintely not for bubs. So that is why i decided enough was enough and look after me instead of worrying what may be or the ex. The fact you're on here and getting it out is a good start - its a little easier to pour things out here than in the real world. Remember that the pregnancy hormones are well and truly kicking in by now and everything may be worse or more daunting than it really is. MY hormones went on a real rampage and the boys at work wondered where the dragon lady came from

I hope that it does work out for you but lay your cards out on the table with him and let him make a choice and always do whats best for you.

i still have moments when i miss him but now i cant wait for bubs to arrive and start a new chapter of life - scary but exciting. Families come in all shapes and guises - whilst we would all love to have the 'traditonal' family being different isnt that bad.