Hey,
Well FOB did not reply for ages after his last email saying that he had no cause to be involved in this "situation" that XP is the legally responsible father of the child and he has no reason to change that.
XP has helped a bit with minding him from time to time. I'm trying to maintain some sort of contact for Lachlans sake. It is hard to know if it really makes a difference though as LAchlan always wants mum does not really interact much with X when he sees him although sometimes he will play random games where he is looking for Dad when hes not there. The only thing that I'm finding is the strings attached as he keeps wanting me to have sex with him and the other day refused to pick up Lachlan because of my refusal because "I wont help him" so why should he help me. I asked him what he wanted and he says he doesnt want to be with me he just wants casual sex. I feel like my self esteem has been right down around my ankles. I need to pick myself up and realise I'm not a piece of meat I'm a smart attractive woman who is 4 subjects away from having a masters degree and I have a very important job and most importantly I am a mother. I just need to realise that I can do better for myself and not be somebodies piece of meat. I'm adament that next time I have sex with someone it will be because I love them, they love me, we care about each other and I want it to be something that it on every level.
Unfortunately I've been working too much lately and have not quite had time to follow up with the family relationship centre or with the lawyer but it will be coming. Especially with whats been happening with XP I just feel like I need something in place to rotect my beautiful baby boy.
Thank you for all of your support
It is muchly appreciated
Mel
xox