Samcougar, I am so very sorry to hear of your loss. Thank you for sharing yours and Riley's story with us here.
There are many supportive organisations that are around to help you through this difficult time. Please don't be afraid to reach out and to talk more, if that's what you feel you need to do.
I loved hearing about that butterfly. That is one of those special moments that you can treasure in your heart.
Know that we are here for you if you need to talk, and I wish you all the best as you return to work.