Bearmum, I just wanted to send you a massive gigantic e-hug and to let you know that i have cried whilst reading your story about your beautiful boy. Please know that you are supported and loved. I am so glad you have a supportive partner to lean on through this. I don't know what else to say but I am so truly sorry for what you are going through and I think it is so special that you had lots of special time with your son afterwards. Huge hugs hun.