oh, oh, oh. I've just shared your, your son's and your DH's story with my DH and we just don't know what to do with ourselves now ... I can't comprehend what you must have gone through then, and must still be going through ... and I don't even want to imagine the shattering ... it brings me to tears to even think about it ... words just can't express.

I also can't imagine your strength and bravery to have given Jackson the birth, cuddles and family time he deserved. I don't know that I could have been that strong, in the face of that much agony and a completely unexpected loss.

I'm sorry also that you felt bible bashed elsewhere ... I have no intention of pushing my beliefs on you, but I do pray that you in time will heal. Never forget, never be the same, but healed and whole again, with Jackson as one important part of you forever.

I also hope that you have the time and space (by yourself or with your DH or other people in your like) to cry, howl like a banshee, sit in bed all day, paint, write, run, or do whatever you need to do to let out your pain. I hope there are things that are available to you, to do that ... I hope your DH does too.

This place is the perfect place to vent and share and be supported by lots of lovely ladies. I hope that you're able to meet some great women who you can really connect with, and be supported by.

I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss.