Thank you all for your words of support, I honestly don't think I can be there for the birth, I really want to for her but maybe I could be there before and after the birth. I thought I would have been able to cope better than this, today I have been so angry, it's just not me and taking it out on DH and the kids and they don't deserve that. I don't know why I'm feeling so angry, I wasn't even like this when I lost Emmanuel. I feel like a real failure at the moment and I don't want any more dreams and how can I be helping this poor women when I feel like this. I want to cry but I'm too angry. I'm mad at myself too because I should be stronger it's been 4yrs and I've been feeling so strong for a long time now. I don't know what to do anymore.

Regards,
Dianne