Sweet Dianne, please don't be angry at yourself.... You are so amazingly strong, even if you don't feel like it right now. I don't think you can put a time limit on your feelings, but I understand you just want to be happy again. I really wish I could be more helpful, but I couldn't read and not post you massive . I think you have made the right choice and need to think about your own mental health first. Sending you love and wishing you peaceful dreams Rach xx