hun,
you are living a nightmare at the moment. You are doing soo well to hold it together enough to function in some sort of normal state. You should be so proud of yourself for even getting out of the house with 4 kids- let alone with all you are going through emotionally.
unfortunately so many people dont realise that just because their life keeps going on, it doesnt mean that you want yours too without your little girl
a big huge hug of strength to you!!
One little step in front of the other