Breeana,i've found my dh deals with our loss differently to me,he doesn't say much to me about Matthew,i don't think he knows what to say,might be the same with Eleana's dad .Did you end up deciding on the memorial ideas ,we have the 1st anniversary coming up and my 4 year old told me'Matthew needs balloons on his birthday',so it looks like we'll be doing a balloon release on the day.