Summery wow, you are one incredible, intelligent, beautiful woman. Your birth story for little Arla was beautiful, insightful and just precious. She may not walk with you but she journeyed with you for almost 9 months, growing right inside you, right with you, then you birthed her in the way you both deserved. Congratulations. I have no wisdom to offer regarding getting through the coming weeks and months but your story was so lovely I wanted to write.