Storm, at first I was so glad to have her out of my house (although i would never say that to her) that I actually felt at peace for a while. I too was afraid of having her around the younger kids...and could not stand the sound of her voice and would cringe inside to look at her. I know that sounds really disgusting, but, after so much horrible behaviour, fighting and verbal abuse (verging on physical) there is only so much you can take. After the mall incident where she turned her back on me, at first I just sorta laughed it off (the BF's mum was with her), but when I got home I started to cry...more for the fact that she hasnt seen her baby brother since she left and didnt even look at him!
It's horrible to think that she is going to have nothing to do with us this xmas, and she is going to miss Jack's first xmas...but it is totally her choice, I have never said she cant come back, I have even txt her and asked her to come see her brothers/sister. But that is it now, I am not going to bother anymore, this is obviously the way she wants it, so I will just let it be.
It is heartbreaking to look of pictures of when she was little and wonder where I went wrong.