Thanks Lucy
I wonder if it's such a big thing with other women as it is for me (anxiety about giving birth).
I mean i'm sure most women are fearful to a degree but i have an extreme fear, so much so that i have put off having babies for 11 years.
I really want to have a baby and i'm sure after the first i will be ok.
Reading all the negative stuff i have done recently about obstetricians i am now getting fearful about them and the decision i have made and am finding myself retreating back to waiting again.
I know i just have to do it but i'm so scared.