Hi Steffi
the advise you have recieved is priceless, i have anxiety about my empending birth too probably not to the extent you do, but im going to try and get some acupuncture as well. I think for you (and me)a hospital is were you feel secure and in your case were you need to be. I see your in perth do you mind me asking who the ob is. My ob is margot norman at joondalup and she has been the most wonderful person ive met, i was told she will treat you like her sister and she does, i cant speak highly enough of her and her midwives. also i dont know about private but when i had DS that was public at joondalup and they give you a midwife at the start and they stay with you the whole time, there is shift change and you may get a new midwife BUT you have one with you the whole time and i found them all wonderful, they sat with me when not much was happening and chatted, really relaxed me, so check with your hos what there policy is. Youll proabaly find to when youre preg you will appreciate how wonderful your body truly is and start to trust yourself a little more! Oh yes and rescue remedy is my life saver never go anywhere without it good luck