hey munchy

oh my sweetness i really wish i was there to give you a huge warm hug, i think its a great idea that your going to the doc today, hopefully he will be able to help you by either putting you on meds or suggesting something else. But i believe that us women are pretty clued on to when there is something not right with our bodies and just like you i knew there was something not right, i was far from my normal self. i was always cranky and tired and just plain annoyed with everything and anything so i sort of knew something was wrong but was scared to really do anything about it, in the end it took me 6mths to do anything about it but honestly i was so much happier when i got things sorted out and i look back on it now and think why did it take me sooooo long to do something about it, you know what i mean????

i truely think your an amazing woman, you are doing the best thing for you and your family by going to the doctor and getting things sorted out. As for your dh maybe you should sit him down and have a huge heart to heart with him and tell him absolutely everything so he can then understand why you are stuggleing. Please dont ever doubt in your mind that your a bad mother cos you are not, you are a loving and tender mother and i can tell that just by the way you talk about harvey, and honey its ok if you lose your temper, we all do it we are only human, as a parent we all get pushed to some point so please dont worry, but darl what you have gone through in the last year or so has been big and its very much life changing to lose brooklyn would of been devastating and then you started facing the ttc journey which in its self can brake any strong woman down cos its god damn bloody hard, so you have had to deal with ttc plus the loss of your gorgeous little girl brooklyn, my god sweetie you are amazing and dont you ever doubt that.

ok i will stop talking now otherwise i will keep going on, i hope i havent upset you thats the last thing i want to do is make you cry, just really wanted to tell you that you are one of the strongest women i have ever met and i look up to you.

please sweetie let me know how you go with your doctor today i will be thinking of you

take care my friend