Hi honey

thanks for the kind words you choked me up i am trying my hardest to hold back the tears as i am at work you are so right we do no when something is wrong and i just want harvey to have a nice mummy not one who shouts at him all the time cos he doesnt deserve it he is such a good little boy i am so proud of him. its weird you saying i am amazing woman and that cos believe me i dont feel like that not one bit i find it hard when people say good things about me even if dh says you look nice i will say to him you are only saying it to make me feel better poor bloke. i think i will talk to dh after christmas as he has to exams coming up in december and dont want to reuin his christmas so i might see if docs can give me some tablets and just keep it to myself for a while i hate putting my problems on people i am the person where people always come to me not the other way round thanks for understanding i just cant seem to find anyone who understands at the min in my head a feel alone i think i am gonna try and get a laptop asap so i can come on hear when i am at home that way if i want to cry i can. well i will let you know what docs say but i will have to tell you monday as i dont work fridays so will let you know i just hope they can sort me out some way or another i wish i had a magic wond and make everything ok anyway thanks again hope your day is good and that i havent put a downer on things take care honey.

Munchy xxx