hj1981: I feel for you in your sadness and fear, I really do. Sometimes our goals just seem so hard and so far away, then other people seem to have it so easy and what can anybody say about it?

Just remember, that we're all pulling for you, we're all behind you and praying for your success. If you need to put your head in the sand for awhile just to assimilate everything, well, there's nothing wrong with that. And if you need to rant and cry, come here.

Sending lots of courage vibes and cyber hugs. PS, it sounds like you have a great hubby.

Hope you post again, soon.