Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage/Loss #2- June 2009

[ferrals5]

Morning girl's
Just a quick post before work.

eliselouise-That's what i'm worried about getting pregnant natrually and the baby is affected after i wait to 12 week's to find out then it might be to late for IVF and the 80% rebate it is a difficult choice it did'nt take us long to get pregnant with abbi i just don't know what to do i got our IVF info pack and dvd in the mail and after reading it getting pregnant natrually seem's the easy option but i want to do the best thing to have a healthy baby

KM1&TinaR-i hope you get your BFP's we need some good new's.

Sammy-i hope you catch that egg.

Juleswa-candle sound's like a good idea.

to my other BB ladie's

AFM-AF is almost gone and i guess i am not TTC now but trying to avoid getting pregnant until we do i IVF i would like to stay here and still talk to you girl's if i can and keep you up to date with what is happening with me as it should be the end of oct that i go for embryo transfer if all go's to plan and i would like to see how you are all going in your TTC journey's it will be hard not TTC and i will need to winge to someone and i guess i will have to change my ticker to a waiting for PGD IVF ticker

[milly5]

HI Ladies

juleswa - thanks, I think I will look into the vitB6 - thanks.

maddison - I hope you have a great weekend too!! Oh and the "relax and it will happen speech" - why is it always people that are pg or have kids - all without any difficulties - are the ones that are SOOO good at giving that speech - URGH!!!

Coco - extra good luck for you this month, either way you are going to have a good outcome, having said that, I am a firm believer in Murphey's law - so because you are booked in for surgery .. you may not need it!! fingers crossed for you anyway!!!

elsielouise - I bled for a week before I m/c, so I didn't bleed as long after the actual m/c, but it would have been close to 3 weeks of bleeding all up. After the m/c my first cycle was longer after the m/c - it took a bit longer to ovulate than usual, because it took a long time for my HCg to drop. I hope your cycle comes back to normal soon. And fingers crossed you won't need the D&C - that was my fear too.

Ferals - thinking of you hon, and sending super hugs. Please stay, don't feel you have to leave us, after all you are still TTC, just having a very short break. And do keep us posted as to how you are going, and whinge away - I know I certainly have.

for all the other ladies here too.

Bring on the BFP's I say!!

[Sunny Love]

Rb has almost left the building...........WOOHOO!

[coco1411]

Hi ladies

I am feeling odd today I had a temp drop and I felt all funny like, crampy but..I cant describe it, and felt sick. Damnit. Its too early to be AF or anything else so Im trying not to think about it, but it's difficult. I think I should have not temped..might just leave it for now...knowing full well in the morning i will temp tmo.. damn!

[Sunbeam]

Hi Girls

Sorry no perssies today cos I'm going insane. Had temp drop which is slowly creeping up, had big "clump" of ewcm this morning but still getting nothing on the OPK I am so confused and worried that I'm just not going to get my LH surge so no egg,I feel like crying . Just to make it worse if I don't o my cylce will be blown out to 45 days which means we won't be trying again till 12th AUGUST!!!!! Does anyone know they o'ed but not got positive on OPK? Just looking for a bit of hope. If I don't o I'm not risking it next cycle and going back on the clomid ( sod all the natural stuff) even though it makes my ovary kill cos if I don't o that cycle either (which is what happened after last m/c, 2 non o cycles) it will be 112 days of no chance to get pg, that's a 1/3 of a year!!! I hate this, why is it soooo hard?

[juleswa]

Hi All,

Coco - could that be an implantation dip maybe? let's hope so!!!

Sunny09 - Glad to hear that RB has stopped, now onward march for egg to catch those pesky swimmers

Ferrals - sounds like you may have reached some peace with it for now. I for one, would love to hear how you're going with everything and all of that is still a part of ttc, so i vote you stay!

Sunbeam - sounds frustrating. I'm in about the same spot as you atm. had a big clump of ewcm and am waiting for the opk to catch up. i'll be testing again this afternoon so hope to see something happening. I hope you do too. maybe the lh surge is just being elusive and hard to catch this month? do you normally catch it each time? the temp and mucus signs are still pretty good predictors so you may still be o'ing but not catch the surge as such?? i hope so.

AFM - i'm still having blood appearing in my cm and to be honest i'm starting to get a little worried about it. Has anyone else had anything like this at all? I'm CD 13. In the back of my mind i'm thinking if i should put off ttc this month untill i know what's going on, but on the other hand i think that it could just be some wierd hormone thing settling down, or could be just my anxiety about the whole thing making it worse (probably doesn't help that each time i'm on the loo i have a bit of a search to see if it's still there!?!??!?!?!?! sorry tmi!!! i just have to laugh at myself though?!??! lol). I really don't want to put off ttc. my cm is starting to amp up so looks like it's falling into place apart from this damn bloody cm!!!!! it's driving me bananas! I also have sensitive nips which isn't usual for this time of my cycle either. could be an oestrogen overload???? HEEELLLPPPPP!!!!

has anyone at anytime has this bloody cm?!?!?!?!?!?

hope everyone else is ok and enjoying your weekends. i just had a nice cup of tea and a cupcake! yum...

Jules

[coco1411]

Jules: I damn hope so!!! I know Im happy to be having surgery if we're not pregnant this month, I would much rather have a little pod growing in there! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do you think that you might be "searching" too much and aggrivating it? It could be little cuts you're accidently giving yourself while searching? Hope it goes away! I didnt have a great deal of bleeding after the miscarriage, the first cycle was heavy and i bloated like a blimp but thats about the extent of my knowledge sorry

[eliselouise]

hi all just thought id pop in for a quick whinge.
Yesterday i thought the bleeding was almost all gone and was so happy to think i wont be have D&C and then today i went and played netball and such heavy bleeding, so annoying have no idea what is going on with my body
One good thing i suppose is that the pains have gone away, thank goodness!
Ferals we would love you to stay here and chat with us for as long as you want and keep us up to date on your progress untill you get your BFP whether naturally or through the IVF
Sunny glad to hear rb has gone sending positive vibes to you on getting that BFP this month
Jules have not had any of bloody cm so cant help ya there. Sometimes i think its hard to not investigate when going to the loo we all like to try and understand what is going on inside our bodies even though sometimes i think it just does our head in more than anything. Keep your chin up for a positive outcome.
Sunbeam i know it all seems too hard and frustrating at times but im thinking of you hunny and sending lots of positiveness your way

Enjoy the rest of your weekend everyone, im just about to kick back and watch the movie Australia, hopefully its good.
Take care all xoxo

[Anila]

Hi all, just a quick one from me, af is still here, its longer than i usually have and keeps getting heavier, i usually have a 4/5 day cycle, i am on day 6 and it didnt look like it was gonna stop this morning, i hope it leaves soon.
Its just a reminder of what i lost.

[ferrals5]

Thank's for saying it's ok to still be in this thread with you all while i'm trying not to get pregnant for now but i'm looking forward to when it all get's started on the 21st of july 12 week's will go quick and i will need you all to help me not be obsessive over cm,temp and opk's and all the pregnant people around me (GOD THIS WILL BE HARD) anyway check out my new ticker it's a long one.
Hope you are all having a great weekend will do percies tomorrow night.

[eliselouise]

Morning all and what a beautiful day it is (where i am it is anyway), hope everyone is enjoying their weekend.
Anilla thats no good about the extra long AF i hope it leaves for you too soon hunny
Ferals i like the new ticker and 12 weeks will go very quickly and of course we will help you with the obsessiveness about cm and temp and all that. I know it must be hard for you but just look at the big picture and the beautiful outcome in the end
No changes at all for me this morning just keeping my fingers crossed that the bleeding stops really soon!!
Anyway gonna go and make the most of this lovely weather and take my puppy for a walk
Bye all

[dellydoo]

Hi All

It is glorious in Bris Vegas too Elise - makes the days a bit easier (did you enjoy the movie??

I went to see FS and we had a big chat - I am now going for an MRI in view to potentially having a myomectomy, to be honest - terrified of having this done as it is extensive surgery and there are risks AND I am about to start a new job and could be off for weeks.
Anila - Hope AF leaves the building soon!
Coco - You OK?
Ferrals - you are always welcome!
Jules - I hope you're OK
Sunbeam - I am so so sorry.

Take care all
Delly

[Anila]

Why wont it go away!

[TinaR]

Afternoon all! what a cold day out home today...store had a few customers and I had time to work on my website so that was good, got my first custom made jewellery order as well!
The down side was I tested and it was BFN. My cycle is a bit longer than normal and I don't feel like I will get RB but I think that she is on her way...upside is we get to dtd and try next month!

Its so hard to keep doing personals since I only get on here every few days!

Anila - hope it leaves very soon and the fun can begin

Ferrals - please stay..you will be trying just not for 12 weeks which will fly by.

Jules & Sunbeam - I would think dtd and not trust the test but trust your bodies signals?

Coco - fingers crossed this is your month

Sorry to everyone I have missed...I'm still at work so have to get going...hope you are all ok (as ok as we ever are in here!)

[juleswa]

hi Girls,

Coco - how's the temp going? and i think you might be right. i wondered myself if i'm not aggravating what could possibly be just a little graze or something. have tried not to 'investigate' anymore and put my thoughts towards bd and having fun with that no matter what - hee hee

Eliselouise - hope maybe it's the last lot of heavy bleeding for you clearing everything out and so it might settle down . And i think you're right too. I think that my body is so sensitive atm that my stressing and slight obsessing about starting ttc again this month has probably caused all this. even dh thinks that could be part of the problem. so i'm trying to keep positive and visualising those pesky spermies attacking my little egg! woo hoo! what did you think of Australia? I loved it.

Anila - hope it eases up for you soon. Just think that every day is a day closer to getting your goal and if it's a heavy period, then it's shedding old tissue to make way for a beautiful fluffy lining for the next eggy to snuggle into. Hope you're feeling ok.

ferrals - i haven't been in here long but the support amongst you all is like that extra bit of strength that helps you put one foot in front of the other - something that we all need i think.

Dellydoo - when are you having your procedure done? i've never heard of that before so will google a bit to find out more. hopefully it's another step closer to something more positive. good luck.

AFM - blood stained cm has settled down a bit. am getting lots of cm (sorry) at the moment but still no positive opk so we're just bd'ing anyways and will untill my temp says otherwise. I'll have to head away with dh to where he works for the next couple of days to make sure we catch the eggie. worst thing is - no internet! so if i'm mia that's why.

I ran into a girl i know who is due a week before i would have been and another friend just popped in who has 10 weeks to go - and it has just made me realise just how much i want this month to work (as we all do every month i know) but it just tugged at some heart strings today a bit more. I have to believe that it will, and try to maintain the positive outlook without tredding that fine line to being obsessive - it's a very very fine line.

hugs to all and enjoy whatever is left of your weekend.

Jules

[juleswa]

Tina - we must have been typing in sync. sorry for your bfn, but with the smallest window of hope, it aint over till the fat lady has sung her tune. what a great attitude to already looking forward to next month - i think we all need to be a bit like that and find something to look forward to each time we feel a bit down. Good on you!

[Anila]

Anila - hope it eases up for you soon. Just think that every day is a day closer to getting your goal and if it's a heavy period, then it's shedding old tissue to make way for a beautiful fluffy lining for the next eggy to snuggle into. Hope you're feeling ok.

I dont know why but that brought a few tears to my eyes, i have just passed a few liver like clots, so i really do hope its old tissue and that my beautiful bundle can nestle in safely soon. I guess after 50 days, it just wants to hang around heavier and longer.

hey juleswa and TinaR, hope u ladies are doing well, i hope we can all get our sticky bfps soon.

[coco1411]

OMG!!!! I AM SOOOO P1$$ED OFF!!!!!!!

You guys might want to while i vent...

I was having what was the most lovely gorgeous relaxing day EVER till about 4pm.

My DH was away at a friends place so woke up to a emty bed and all the blankets and I took myself to 3 monkeys for breakfast, poached eggs, sour dough, bacon & baby spinach and a massive [decaf] skim latte. It was awesome.

I then went shopping...bought 2 pairs of shoes, a pair of patent leather black flats with a buckle, and a pair of white lace up Puma casual shoes, like skate shoes but more sophisticated you know? And a cute skirt, gorgeous backless grey top with nice beading on it which I wouldnt normally wear but looks amazing! And just other bits and pieces, singlets black & white to go under everything in winter, and to wear to bed, some tights and a fluffy red knitted scarfe....

Then I went out to lunch with a group of girl friends in which one of them is a "friend" I use the term loosely, she is my DH BF's wife...She is pregnant, found out a month ago, its going great. I noticed she was wearing jeans that were cutting into her stomach *she is a bigger girl* and she was wearing boots with a heel....now, the day I started to lose our baby I was wearing jeans and was bloated so they were starting to cut into my stomach, and I was wearing my boots with a heel...I always blame that outfit for it happening...its the first time i wore heels for a long time and i started spotting that night... Im not being crazy, I really do think thats what happened, the wearing heels may have put my back out? or angled my uterus different? and the jeans put too much pressure on my uterus??? Whatever....

I kept looking at her because she was staring at me and staring at my stomach in my shirt (now, im sorry but im not being a b1tch i looked really good today i thought) and I swear to god I felt like saying "yes I am not pregnant, and i have lost the weight I put on when i was pregnant (yeah, 7th week into pregnancy I had put on weight..lovely..) and I cant wait to have a baby bump because now it will show.

None of the others know she is pregnant... so god it was hard keeping my mouth shut around her. I was so tempted to say something to let it slip you know?

I feel really ashamed...all my thoughts were me lashing out to her because she is pregnant with NO TRYING!!!! AND she eats crap and didnt bother loosing her extra weight which is going to possibly put her in the diabetic category so i have read and that really made me mad that she doesnt give a **** about her body to respect it...

THEN!!!!! We went to see the proposal, and I went lined up and bought a ticket and she goes "oh i already bought the tickets.." I was FUMING! I WANTED TO SLAP HER! and I said "well, how was I to know? You didnt tell me?" and she said, with a smart a$$ look on her face in a sarcastic tone, "whoops!"

I was having the best day but seeing her made me furious!!!!! I HATE HER RIGHT NOW!