ferrals-hope af stays away ,you haven't let your dh down(he wouldn't want you to think that)...t-hopes-i've been on clomid,dr usually like you to of been ttc for 6-12 months without any results,i was told it would kick start my ovaries due to being sluggish due to my age,they put me on it after 3 months of ttc due again to my age,it is well worth asking about,they do get good results from it,hugs to you,thanks for asking about me,i'm plodding along,things still have to be done ,so i;m doing them...
loops -hoping its a surprise bfp for you sweetheart!
ferrals - dont blame yourself, anyone of us would have assumed the best if we had of seen those lines! matthewsmum is right, he would hate you to be feeling guilty! its not your fault! so dont make this any harder on you than it already is ok!
thanks matthewsmum - next cycle would be 8mths of unsuccessful TTC so hopefully he'll let us have a crack at Clomid! My g/f tried for 9mths, she was ovulating but dr put her on clomid and bang, utd! Hoping he lets me! just get nervous about asking cause i dont really know what im talking about! so thanks to you and ferrals for the info!
matthewsmum - whats the next plan of attack for yourself???
xx
t-hopes-i have to ring ivf nurse when af comes and they will start to trackk my cycle for 'o' signs than till me when i can go in & try transfer of one of my fozen embies,they will thaw one(sometimes they don't survive the thawing process)& see how that one goes,if doesn't survive they go on to the next,i have 6 in the freezer,they have told me sometimes they don't get any surviving ones,so have to take it when step at a time,using opk's to try an pinpoint 'o',will b'd (dr told me i wont fall preg without med assistance last christmas after i had a dye test on my tubes)but i still have to give it a go,it should help anyway to try to pinpoint when af should be coming(cycle after ivf can be mixed up).Good luck with dr app,they sent me for blood tests to check progesterone levels.
Ferals - my sweet Ferals. I have just been reading about your rollercoaster ride over the past couple of days. I am hoping that for some reason today's test is faulty. You posted something earlier about a conversation your friend overheard between your mum an d a slapper? Sweetie, irrespective of what happens in your TCC, you have not let anyone down. I know it feels like it, but I'll bet your Mum is just a proud as anything of you and by the way you talk about your DH I am sure he is too. I am too. Anyway, only 3 more sleeps til your little fur babies come home.
Crafty - Happy birthday for yesterday. Sorry that you are out. I was really hoping.
Murray - thinking of you today. Hope your bioposy goes well. I am soooooo excited about your feline fur babies. Any names yet? My cats have been an absolute god send. I would really be lost without them, so I am glad you'll get to share to experience now.
Milly D - Congrats darling. How did you end up telling DH?
Bons - hope your MG goes well. It must feel really odd. I skipped a gathering on the weekend of my friends, all who have had babies. I skipped it for a variety of reasons - fear of germs as one of the little ones was sick, but also because someone wrote in an email " can't wait to see you all - don't forget to bring along photos of the kids". It just really upset me when I read that, and I though, "Bet no one wants to see photos of my kids". I know the comment wasn't directed at me and of course I understand how exciting it is for people to brag, but I guess I am trying to say I understand your feeling of either not belonging or feeling left behind.
Hi to everyone else,Mathew's Mum, T Hopes, TCCALC, Alice ( and so so many I have missed) not feeling that talkative either, unusual. It's so nice to read about how supportive and excited you are for each other. In a way I miss being a part of it. Hoping you'll get defect soon. All good here. Wishing you lots of positive vibes
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Sad, this thread hurts a bit today, we all deserve to get out of here so badly and it takes so much energy to dust ourselves off and start again.
Ferrals the important thing is that you get to take your next baby home, if that takes 3 more months, then so be it. You can get through it. And maybe this is your month, your not out yet, you might be one of the miracle people
T-hopes: I'm sorry darling, hope it goes well at the doc's!
Loops: Oooh, waiting to see the result!
Hi to everyone else, xo
AFM still stuck in my assignment bubble, waiting to start testing...
Awww ferrals, i was in tears reading your post and was dancing a jig for you.Im praying that todays test was a bodgy one and that you get a BFP tomorrow.I looked at your pic and by god it was 2 lines for sure.Its not over yet sweetie and in no way have you let anyone down.You are doing all the right things and i am hopeful that this month is all yours babe, u so so deserve it.
Congrats Milly,thats supper brilliant news sweetness..Heres to a healthy 9 months ahead for you.
Murraycod, good luck with your biopsy darling.am thinking of you.
Good luck to everyone else.Sending you all the stickiest of sticky vibes
AFM: well my sweet girls, i have past the 12 weeks mark (nearly 13 now) and so wish i was sharing this journey will you all, sharing our experiences.I read your posts daily and find myself checking in on this more than my due date group.the only thing that has stopped me from being a frequent poster is my ticker that i have to keep disabling..cant do it from my phone..bugger bum....
Will continue to read on your journeys and be thinking of each and every one of you.. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Kitfaerie im with u.. it is feeling a bit sad in here today
But ferrals! i honestly have a good feeling bout this.. just wait til af is late and test again.. dont lose hope yet.. it isnt over til she arrives! Dont u sometimes wish u cld do ur own blood tests at times like this and test ur own hcg etc. levels.. god i have wished that so many times! it wld be so convenient, u wld always know exactly what was going on.. none of this frustrating not knowing business! but yeah good luck.. put a smile on ur face if u can. My DH has moments where he is upset about what has happened but he still points out that at the end of the day we still have eachother and he wld much rather our relationship be strong and happy then always upset and frustrated and if it meant giving up this dream then he could do it.. I cant quite agree with it but i think its his way of saying he will be here no matter what.. and i know ur DH would feel the same.
I have also realised its ok for ur DH to be upset at times too.. just think of what u urself have gone thru!! its a bit awful to say it like this but they deserve to feel a bit of the frustration and pain as well.. i know i was trying to put on a brave face when i realised i was losing our baby to try and save DH from the pain as well, but at the end of the day ur in it together.. x
T-Hopes- Maybe if ur doc doesnt prescribe u clomid then u shld go to ur g/fs doc!! i think its main purpose is to make u 'o' but it also regulates hormones etc. if u cant get it and really want it i have a 5 repeat presciption for it, i can send some on to u
Crafty- Sorry to hear next month will be ur month x
and i will write to everyone else tonight, gotta get myself off to work! xx
reet - hehehehe! I may take you up on that offer Just worried that he wont cause my progesterone was 72.8 last week so it seems i definatly o'ed but why the bloody hell cant the sperm find it! Im worried my tubes are blocked or something! oh lordy! The joys! thnx darlin xx
hubbabubba - congrats on your 12 week mile stone! Fabulous news and inspiration that we too, will get there... eventually! x
t-hopes- i hope i didn't get you worrying about your tubes,talking about my plumbing problems,fs told me what happened to mine wasn't that common(that is why they didn't test for it before clomid treatment)....
Ferrals don't give up hope, I know what it feels like though as I have had BFPs before then 5 days later started AF thats one reason I don't like testing before I am late !
Try again friday if AF not arrived but could be a dodgy test still FX for you honey,
AFM well girls thanks for thinking of me I am afraid I am close to tears all the time really feel sh*t got dreadful headache dizzy spells and AF is well and truely here 1 pad every hour so she is really flooding over here the biatch !
trying to keep positive but finding it really hard to even beleive it will be my turn ever again
Ferrals, sweetheart I hope you are ok, I got a false positive last month 9 days after my Pregnyl trigger shot to get rid of those 5 eggies I had for the cancelled FET. I thaught the pregnyl was out of my system, had my hopes up then squashed....again.
So I know exactly how you feel, I'm sure many of us do. Unfortunately.
I agree with not POAS again until AF is late, but I know you too well, well I know myself anyway and you are very similar to me (ie hiding in the closet with a packet of hidden pee sticks )
Darling, in all seriousness, I hope you are ok, I know it is easy for me to say 'focus on the kittie cats and other things', but I now how consuming this can get. Atleast try get some sleep tonight, and focus on tomorrow morning, see how strong willed you can be by not peeing on another evil stick.
I run to the loo, pee as quick as I can, then woops, too late to test now, will have to do it another day XXXXX
Take good care my love, and be easy on yourself hun X
Crafty, happy belated birthday sweetpie!!!! Sorry didn't give you blessings earlier, I have been a little stressed about having this biopsy done, and didn't have many nice things to say/share, so thaught it best to lurk.
I am so sorry you are having such a heavy Day 1 cycle. Big huggs to you. We can both get our 2 lines in may together XXXXX
Notice how I said Day 1 cycle, focusing on another fresh start, not the end of the past month. Love to you XXXXX
Loops, Oh I am a little excited that perhaps you have a little miracle suprise to share soon!! Are you able to get any bloods done to check where you are at?? More definate thats all, as much as I am addicted, those darn sticks should be extinct, they are a source of worry. Atleast knowing what levels you have, can either confirm what we are all hoping for you, but give you precise info, to stop any dissapointment, because emotionally darling, you have been through so damn much these past couple of months, and I don't wish that on anybody XXXX
Alice my lovely, hows the contraceptive pill going Horrible isn't it! I gaged every time I had to have one, it was like my brain was yelling "What the hell are you doing girl!!".
I was really looking forward to being Stim cycle buddies, but now we will just have to support eachother on consecutive months! (one crazy girl at a time hey!) XXXX
Matthew'smum, hope you are doing well, I am so scared of my upcomming cycle, I feel your dissapointment, and am scared of feeling the same, again, in a months time. Hugs to you strong lady XXXXX
Reet, how are you going X
HubbaBub, you are such a sweetheart, thank you so much for looking over us that are still here XX Congrats for getting to Trimester number 2!! So exciting, and inspirational XX
Enjoy the assignment Kit....yuk!! Poor darling X
Thopes, clomid can be diferent for everyone, it is definately worth a go. Even if you do ovulate, you can have clomid, it can help regulate your cycle to a perfect 28 dayer if you don't already have one, because it makes you ovulate on a precise day. Good luck with it, if you get to have a try.
I am really excited to start reading my twilight books again, I have held off for weeks, so It gives me something to do during my Stim, actually I am more excited about reading my books, than starting my needles!!!!!XXXXX
Dory darling, got your message, made me a little emotional actually, love to you, you know how to make people feel good about themselves XX
I am still in shock that my DH has got these 2 kittens. They are beutiful, but wow I never expected he of all people to get a cat even 2!!!!
Please please don't laugh, my DH has named them and he has told me there is NO discussion otherwise...they are called.......dunno if I can even type it, without cringing.....her I go.....Oh damn this is so embarrasing....Tooty and Mooty.......yes girls Mooty...I have to call this cat Moot (and it's ginger like me) OMG what has he gone and done....Tooty and Mooty....sigh....He's not naming our kids thats for sure now!
To all I missed, love to you XXXX
Well, Endometrium Biopsy, dont reccomend it, don't ever want one again unless I am seriously on some super strong druggs that put me to sleep for the whole day.
That, was, the, most, awfull, painfull, disgusting, spine shattering thing I have ever had done.
Couldn't get passed my cervix, so I had to have a local anasthetic to it...yeup, ouch. It stung getting the local, but nothing even compared to the pain of what was to come next. Had to use forcepts to hold open my cervix after the local kicked in, this I did not feel, but the actual biopsy was the strongest pain down inside I could ever imagin.
Poor nurse had to hold me onto the chair for a second, because the shock of the pain sent me hurdling towards the ceiling.
I have bled a bit since, just enough to fill a pad, but suprised how quickly it filled up the pad, sorry TMI, and it was red blood to begin with, now a sort of blackish colour.
OMG, I can still feel it inside me, I get a twinge every now and then that brings the biopsy feeling right back. Gunna take a while to get over that one girls, and the Jaws of Life to get my leggs open ever again.
Oh shoot I forgot to mention... I picked up all of my injectables for the upcomming Stim cycle, so surreal to have them in the fridge again, a little terrifying too!!
Last stim, I was on 150iu of Puregon each night,
This time I'm on 225iu, was a suprise to me! Mabey because of all the pills I have to pop also??
Dunno, FS never discussed changing the dose strength with me. Come what may.
craftymummy-i hope the bleeding eases up soon,lots of hugs...murraycod-sorry the procedure was so painful for you,i hope you are able to get some sleep tonight now that it is over...
oh murraycod - you poor love, i ache inside just thinking about having that done! you are a very brave girl! when do you get your results for it?? Happy to hear your fridge is looking happy with all your meds!! Yay! Its almost May! Yay for May! Thanks for the advice on Clomid, my cycles are between 30 - 38 days so I guess thats not too bad but certainly never the same every month! I was expecting AF today but can feel in my body that she's still a few Days away! SO annoying when you know its coming! Just start already!!! And hehehhehe! Love the pussy cats names! Makes me chuckle
matthewsmum - no no you didnt worry me at all! My gyno had mentioned to me on my last visit that if no pregnancy by Sept he wanted to check my tubes werent blocked so dont worry, he put it in my head xx
crafty - Murraycod is right.... Day 1 of a new cycle.... and hopefully you will also be saying Yay in May!!! x x
kit - G/L with your assignment! I dunno how you do it!!!
dory - nice to hear from you, i get excited when i see a post from you... love to hear how you are doing, you always make me smile
ferrals - how are you doing tonight?? How is DH? xx
AFM- well feeling a little nervous about seeing my gyno tomorrow, i only saw him 2 weeks ago and he had said to keep trying and if nothing by Sept to go back....hmmmm.... i only gave it 2 weeks! What am i gunna say to him?? Will he think im completely insane?? Maybe i am??
Oh murraycod.. that sounds awful u poor poor thing i cant even begin to imagine what it wld feel like..
Im alright, thanks for asking i have 1 more tablet of the provera to take in the morning then hopefully af arrives soon after, i can then start on the clomid and then ill be back on the bandwagon! yay!
I hope u can forget that horrible feeling soon x
Crafty- it sounds like ur having a good clean out ready for a little bub to be implanted.. x
T-hopes- i think u shld go to a new gyno! i dont think their doing the right thing with u.. sept is too far away! when i went and saw my gyno i had only been ttc for a couple months except i had been bleeding for 3 months after going off the pill so maybe thats why he put me straight on clomid. When i started on the clomid he wanted to see me at monthly intervals too so he cld see if it wasnt working and cld try something else. I luckily conceived 2nd go.. if we hadnt conceived that cyle then we wld have had to go thru other tests such as sperm sample etc. And now after mc and af not arriving on time he put me straight on provera and clomid again and if i dont fall this next cycle then i have to go see him again. So yeah i reckon things need to be a bit more fast paced for u.. if ur not happy with the gyno ur seeing try and get into a different one i reckon.. but yeah when u see him/her tomoro just tell them that ur not happy waiting til sept cos u have been bloody waiting long enough!
I do hope u conceive way before sept tho and dont need to go thru anything else! x
Murraycod shame you poor thing have a good rest and look forward to starting your new meds for your may bub ! Thanks for thinking of me even though you had a traumatic day and I guess your right 1st day new cycle, My DH said to me on the bright side at least I got a good cycle again 30 days is not bad back to normal I would say but don't mean next month will be or maybe it just might and I catch the egg and a good one !
So YAY FOR MAY !
ferrals how you doing ! its sh*t this feeling of hopelessness and failure I sure hope you get your BFP later on in the week but if not then you will have to joing the YAY FOR MAY GROUP !
Did some retail therapy today at spotlight my favourite shop so feel a bit better still cramping and heavy but I guess thats better than the black rubbish from a few months ago !
Tell me ladies do you have to have a referal to a GYNAE from a GP or can you phone and go by yourself ! was just thinking maybe a trip would do me some good get some other info and see if I can get some answers to my hormone probs !
Thanks again Murraycod,ferrlas, thopes, kitfaeri ,dory ,saffy,reet, iona,matthewsmum,bons,Alice,sunbeam, and everyone else who has been so friendly and unselfish and thought about me ! It makes my day seem not so bad after all !
YOUR THE BEST !
it's your turn next month....i'll hold your hand all the way thru it
) OMG what has he gone and done....Tooty and Mooty....sigh....He's not naming our kids thats for sure now!
with all your meds!! Yay! Its almost May! Yay for May! Thanks for the advice on Clomid, my cycles are between 30 - 38 days so I guess thats not too bad but certainly never the same every month! I was expecting AF today but can feel in my body that she's still a few Days away! SO annoying when you know its coming! Just start already!!! And hehehhehe! Love the pussy cats names! Makes me chuckle 
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