afternoon ladies

Just a quick post before xmass i worked all day then nicked down to the shops and we ran into an aquaintance that was pregnant when i was and two weeks behind me we havnt seen them since 4 months pregnant and they diddnt know we lost abbi but they came over and said high and look we had a girl what did you have well looking at her baby girl i just lost it and burst into tears and grabbed DH hand and walked away we diddnt even tell them what happened i felt every emotion come flooding back it was terrible then on the way out of the shops my hubby ran into his an ex girlfriend and she said i heard you were having a baby my DH said we were but we lost her then she said if you stayed with me i would have given you a baby WTF!!! if i was there i would have slapped her my DH just said i have the love of my life we just got married and we are happy and walked away but now i feel like i cant have my mans baby and its all my fault i know its not but i feel i have let him down when it is us together that has sick babies not us alone with other partners it is so unfair anyway i just needed to vent so i better go and leave you all to your families for xmass i hope everyone has a safe and wonderful xmass and we will wish for BFP's for all of us next year.