shortcake - Thanks for the suggestions. I just might look into the spa thing.

jen - Thankyou so much for your beautiful words. You had me but they were happy tears. And thankyou for sharing your experiences. Maybe with your help I too can get to a point where I can help others "fight the battle of a broken heart". Goodluck with the skydive! That sounds like a fantastic way to honour your angels. And thanks again.

Mel - Thankyou for all your advice too. I did have a D&C so I'm pretty sure they flushed my tubes as well (I vaguely remember the doc who did the procedure mentioning something, but the details of that day are kind of vague now). Actually work might be sending me to Tassie for a conference in September . Depending on where you are, we might be able to catch up then?

I just have to get through next week and then DH and I are taking 2 weeks off from work. Our angles EDD and our 4th wedding annivesary are both during this time, so we are planning to get away for a few days. Yesterday, I actually had DH seriously considering Bali! I'd be happy with a couple of nights in Victor Harbour, but DH wants to go interstate. I think a change of scenery will be a good thing.

I've also been reading a lot on pregnancy and conception in the last week. Since so much of TTC is waiting (there's the two week wait, waiting for AF to finish if she does arrive, and then waiting for that fertile time ), there are only a few days to actually do something practical. So far I've found that reading is something practical that I can do on a daily basis and knowledge is power, right?

At the moment I'm reading "Trying Again" by Ann Douglas. Has anyone else read this book? It covers the practical and emotional aspects of TTC, pregnancy and birth after the loss of a baby. (Although if you haven't had a baby die through stillbirth or neonatal death the chapters on what can cause these maybe just cause more worry, so I skipped those).