Hi Coco,

I just wanted to say that I understand entirely how you are feeling. I only went back to work a couple of weeks ago and that was after 4 months off. I lost my little girl at 23 weeks in September 08. I work in a women's gym so not only was it difficult for me to see all the girls (who are wonderful but you know... all the "sorry's" etc... ) but I also see pregnant girls all the time working out. My heart STILL sinks into my chest for just a second when I see them.

I hate this feeling - its really getting to me again. Sometimes I think I am dealing with things really well and then all it takes is a little things and I'm back on the angry path. And I'm not sure about the other girls in here but I have flash backs of everything. And I shake my head or close my eyes so they go away again. Guess I'm suppressing the awful memories of it all.

Anyhow, I guess you just have to take things one day at a time. And I have found that every occasion I have been anxious to go to, has always been better and easier than I expected in my mind. I hope your first day back at work was better than you expected it to be.

Keep writing in here - every time you do it always feels easier.

Much love, Joselyn. xxx