Trying to Conceive after Miscarriage/Loss -February 2009

[mrzbaby]

Hi all,
Well where do I begin???

Tomorrow I am off for my 3rd ...yes 3rd D&C in 3 weeks! over it over itover it. Certainly feeling like I shouldn't be buying a lottery ticket at the moment!

Went to see my gyno after I had my ultrasound and it appears as though the clot I assumed they took out at my 2nd D&C has nearly doubled in size in the last week.

They also gave me the disc of my last ultrasound the one where we discovered our angel had died so today has just been crappy crappy actually it has been plain #$%@!.

I have been having 'after birth ' pains ( thats what the midwife called them in hosp) that just don't seem to go away to the point I now have not slept for 36hours becuase of the pain!!!! Hence my ramblings...

I am trying to remain positive but feeling really angry that this just cant seem to end at the moment.
When I left hospital on the 1st March I wlaked out with confidence asaying start of a new month was the start of happy endings but now I have to have this AGAIN

Sorry feeling Very Very sorry for myself.

Happy to be seeing all the BFP, I know one day I will have our forever baby.

Take care ladies,
Em