SPF - hello and I'm sure everyone is v. happy to hear from you! Its the success stories that keep us going don't you think? Please report again soon!
Jahzara - fingers crossed! My SIL said she had no symptoms at all in the first trimester, same with my friend who is 7mnths now and same with one of the women in my August BellyBuddies group so don't give up hope! Looking forward to your BFP news!
Ferrals - yah for the gizmo! I hope this month is the one!!
TTCaLC - baby dust for you too!
Emmy83 - go the lefties! I rely on mine to do all the work too I hope your girl makes you a super good egg this month.
AFM, I went to a party yesterday of some very dear friends and I feel so much better in my spirits today. Yesterday started off bad - lots of big fat wet tears about still not having my AF, not wanting to be doing IVF in winter (it'll be June by the time we get going) and then for getting the days of the week wrong and turning up to the docs on the wrong day. Thought about that last one for a while and started to laugh - poor DH thinks I'm a bit mental but laughed too. That broke the ice and I decided to make a real effort for the party - baked a cake, made a nice card and frocked up and off we went. Well, when we got there, my friend had a big bowl of Chinese fortune cookies on the table. I picked one out and guess what it read? "When winter comes heaven will rain success on you"!!! Showed DH and he was v. amused so it is on our fridge now and will be part of my positive thinking strategy in the months to come. Just had to share that with you!!
PS I got as far as 8 pages on this thread so still catching up but I'll get there!!
Sorry, had a coffee for the first time in about five months to day and boy am I buzzing . Not good!
Thanks Alice. I want the egg to come from lefty as although I have my right Ovary its useless without a tube. My other tube can only get eggs from the left as its adhesed to the left ovary sort of. So the right one hopefully will get some use if we have IVF in a few months.
HAPPY VALENTINES day everyone. Hope you all got spoilt.
Hope you all have a good one !
SPfairy weldone on your bt levels thats a real good sign and Don't worry about not feeling pg as yet its still early days from around week 6 that may be a very different story. Please keep us informed its so nice to hear success stories from one we have come to know so well over the last 5mnths so keep us posted and we will be joining you soon.
Ferrals thanks for that I have looked on ebay and will get one if I don't get a BFP this month and my blood work comes back and lets me know Im still in with a chance !
I also have a very good feeling this month so lets go girl we are determined, I did an opk yesterday and got 2 lines although one was fainter still I guess it means the LH surge is on its way so I managed to get some valentines in so my every other day has started for this next week so I I have a good eggie ready to make friends with a very smart spermy ! then settle into a very comfy bed for the next 9 mnths !
Anyhow that the plan without hope life is not much fun !
Everyone heres lots of need to relax now and do another opk !
Sarah.. im so sorry to hear that.. Like i said before i had the same thing.. hang in there sweetie
SammyP.. imso sorry to hear this.. and sorry that you had to come back to this forum
At times i just want to give up with 10 yrs on our belt ttc and then losing our angel baby but i feel the same way i dont think our family is completed yet..
best of luck sweetie.
Tryingfor#3 Welcome to the site and im sorry that you had to be in this forum.. the ladies in here are soo welcoming and sweet you will just fall in love with them all..
My fingers are crossed for you as well.
ferrals Darn it i really thought photobucket would help ya ... Do you mind is i see what you have done for abbi?if not that's ok i understand
Crafymom Oh sweetie i knwo to well about those migranines with my putitary tumor that is all i get is mirgaines and bad headaches it pretty much is with me all day and nite i just got so use to them i can tolerate them to a point..
Hope you feel better..Good Luck on test
Miniatron Dont be sorry sweetie for not being on here and I GOT MY FINGERS CORSSED Kitfarie yeah my house is fun..lol they all keep me busy including my big teddy bear DF..thanks and like u said about m/c again im so scared this will happen to us again.. i got my fingers crossed for you Murraycod~ Go have some fun sweetei you so much deserve it!!.. i'll keep u in my prayers hang in there Snugglebean Good luck sweetie Elsielouise thanks for the baby dust
Jahzara~ Just wanted to say hello..
Ric- Miss seeing you .. hope everything is ok with ya!! T-hopes .same with you hope everythign is ok with ya
for anyone else i forgot best of luck and lots and lost of
AFM.. Just waiting .. i feel pretty good today.. from my ticker today is the day OD.. if i know what im doing with these tickers..lol
I just wish march 1would get here to see if i start or not.. if i dont start by march3 im poas i wanna do it now but honestly i dont want to get the disappointment so imwaiting
Murrycod-it's awful when we go over those types of memories and do the what if's it hurts and is painful and i am here for you to help get through this time
DH has converted Abbi's montage to a different format using a trial program i will email it to you the only thing is it has a blue copyright symbol in the left hand corner we can't remove and Abbi's poem is not as clear to read but it is pretty close to what it normally looks like so you will get the idea of how it looks for now until we find a way to change it without paying for the program.
TTCALC-Of course i don't mind if you have office 2007 version the montage should open no problem PM me your email address and i will sent it to you and i am praying you get to see those magical two lines very soon.
Crafty-My sister get mid cycle migrines to and the doc's are sending her off for some test's they did mention hormone changes could be causeing it but they aren't sure is that normal for you or a recent thing.
AFM- i am soooooo excited my CBFM has shown a peak reading which means i will ov in the next 36 hrs and sure enough i looked at the test lines and the LH line is dark and the estrogen line is light just as the book say's it is suppose to do so DH better come home with some energy tonight then he is off tomorrow and thursday so i will let him rest after thursday.
murraycod - I reckon the anniversary of finding out your were pg is one of the big hurdles, actually, so don't beat yourself up. It's on my list of the Big Three - EDD, then BFP day, then mc day. It's OK to be sad for all of them.
crafty - congrats on your nephew. I'm sure it's a lot of mixed emotions for you, but I bet you're an awesome auntie. Some people treat me really gingerly around babies (even though I'm a childcare worker FFS!) but I think they seem a little bit more miraculous now.
Stupidly hot again today. I am sitting here naked and procrastinating because I can't face getting dressed or the ride to work. Which is particularly dumb because the longer I wait, the hotter it gets!
Hi ladies - I can't respond to all the posts, but know my heart is with you.
Ferals - your tribute to Abbi in your montage is as beautiful as she is. Precious sweet Abbi, I wanted to reach out and just give her all my love, but she already has all of yours.
Sunbeam - oh blossom, I am so so sorry. Go gently, my thoughts and love are with you. I know not much really helps to ease the pain, but in time when you have the strength to return to us, we will be here, ready to give our love and support. Thinking of you.
Sammy P - about your question as to whether it gets easier with time? I am not sure grieving gets easier, its more than we learn about our grief and we know a bit better what to expect from it. I think as time passes our grief changes and becomes less of an obbssession, so as time passes we let other things and life in, so that the grief takes up less space in our lives, but is no less important? A friend of mine ( who is 40 this year), her mum had a m/c between having my friend and her brother. At my friends baby shower, her mum broke down and grieved for the baby she m/c some 40 years ago. A friend of mine whose baby son was still born at 39 weeks, still can hardly talk about him, even to me, and grieves deeply, three years on.
I am approaching a year of "first anniversaries" this year. A lot like you I spent a lot of the past year or so pregnant, and I am really not sure how I am going to manage. 23 Feb, 28 July, 30 August for my angel babies - Amelia 21 weeks gest, Nicholas 14 weeks gest and Sophie 19 weeks gest. Nicholas and Sophie are twins.
People can't comprehend multiple losses or grieving for multiple angel babies. I suppose until I had to, neither could I. But I think about it, that its more that I have more opportunities for love in my life and each precious little one, represents so much love, beauty and grace.
I hope you made it ok through your day. It's ok, I say, to feel so many feelings on important days. Just go with the flow and don't beat yourself up, just accept your feelings. Hope you manage the next date in a way that gives you some peace.
Finally I am back, almost recovered with little bit of weakness, but its all good, DH took a good care of me and fed me well all these days and I just have to go for one final check-up to Doc's and i am off from all those antibiotics.
Its been really long time since i have posted or read any post...Missed my routine, day to day life and ofcourse BDing as well (heheeee)
SAMMYP - Big hugs to you Darl, my thoughts and prayers are with you in such a tought time, Sending you lots of "BabyDust" on your way hun. I dont know why these Doc/ OBs take an action and do all the relevant tests or referral so that proper care and directions are there in next pregnancy, well pregnancy is a pregnancy (short or long) and
loss is a loss..it really hurts you bad when they do things half heartedely ( just like my doc who commented rudly that i am too desperate to fall prego quickly - shame on them). just STAY POSITIVE AND everything will turn around in your
favour. Hugs to you.
SUNBEAM - Sorry to hear about your loss as well, but good that there was no ectopic surgery and HCG levels are dropping. Good that you are positive and not giving up. how are you feeling now?good to hear that your flatmate is looking after you and decided to spend sometime with you, you really need a support during this time.
ANITA -How are you doing and hows things going on? alot of snow over there, how are you coping in such a coldwinter? and when are you testing? and you have to tell me how to add that ticker on the profile - i too want one of those tickers under my signature... and busy in BDing.
T-HOPES - how are you and hows chinese acupunture going on? any update?
MURRAYCOD - how are you? spoiling yourself with cakes and chocolates...yummmmmmmy...mouth watering... i too want some, but can't as i have to stick to juice, soup and porriadge and vegies... i know i always believe in that
00000000000000.1% chance every month. Just follow the heart, listen to it, do your work, and results will show.I always think that God has chosen me to sit in his test, when i am fully prepared and ready, he will grant me my wish and pass me in the test. I know its easy to say, but very difficult everyday to getup and atleast once in a
day think about that day when i was pregnancy with my angel and why it happend to me...and searching for some answers and blame yourself and feel low, but you have to move on and see ahead and search for that "ray of light". DH says i have become more philosiphical in past 2 weeks, but everyday i think about only one thing and he won't
understand.
MuRRAYCOD, FERRALS & CRAFTYMUMMY - I liked your Avatars...congrats for 2010 Raked..i too want one of those...FERRALS when are you getting yours...i am waiting to see your's as well
CRAFTYMUMMY - I liked your AVATAR, congrats for 2010 RAK Recipient. May be midcycle headache / migrane is a indication of ovulation or hormonal shift in the body.
Cratymummy - you quotation is well said and true that friendship begins because even without words we understand how someone feels.
FERRALS - I too want to see ABBIES memories which you have preserved with you. I will PM you my email Id, Hope you will share it with me as well. Sorry that i was away and requesting you late, but if you are not able to upload it why dont you ZIP (Compress) the file and load it here, it compresses the file size and takes less space, or you
can share it via dropload website. I also viewed you surge sticks, they are pretty clear, better than the manual one.. hey which kit are you using to check or monitor ur LH surge, i have once used digital OPK, but i never showed me any LH surge, waste of $50.00
if you dont get any results...which one are you using and do you get heaps of sticks with it?? let me know, if you dont mind.
TRYING FOR NO.3 - sorry that you found this website and you are here. trust me girls here are very nice, understanding, and above allsupportive. Hope your journey here is short and you get your BFP soon.
SNUGGLYBEAN - How are you? how was your holidays and all the best for testing? Goodluck, goodluck and lots of good luck and babydust to you.
AND TO EVERYONE ELSE - NEW MEMBERS AND OTHER FRIENDS = HOW ARE YOU ALL? Hope everything is all right with all of you.
and i apologize for spelling mistakes and this long post. I will post again.. feeling little tired now
Sunbeam - I'm so sorry. Yours was one of the first pg I read about in this thread. I'm glad you have the support of your flat mate - it's a tough time to get through. Like you, my first response was quite calm and I wanted to try again as soon as I could but by the second day I just fell apart. So disappointed for you. Take care and be kind to yourself x
SammyP - I'm so sorry you have gone through this so many times. It must be terribly heartbreaking for you and no wonder you are scared to try again. Lots of love to you and I hope we can give you some comfort and support here you need.
TFN3 - I'm sorry to read about your loss too - so much sadness - it's just not fair. Take care x
Jahzara - I hope it is just too early - be rotten to get your AF on your weekend away.
Minimatron - Melissa!! Wonderful wonderful news for you - I'm so excited to read it!!! Looking forward to your update. I'm five weeks this Fri since my mc and still no AF. It would have to be a spectacular miracle for me to be pg but I do get these episodes of magical thinking from time to time! I bled for about two weeks after the mc and it got heavier after about five days so I must be due soon. xx
TTCaLC - oh my goodness, when I read about your household it made me cry! So loving of you and your DH to have all those little ones to care for and sounds like it is super busy but fun. I'd love to have a house full of little ones - my DH is from a family of 11 and I just love it when everyone gets together. I hope you can make it 6 soon!
KitFarie - fingers crossed that you are pg!
SarahRach - i had a blighted ovum too. Horrible expression, isn't it?
MurryCod - No what you mean about the age thing, egg quality, and waiting...I think I stimmed my leftie out to the max too - so sore since the mc and I have a belly that looks like I should be pg. Sorry to read about how you've been feeling - I hope this little March blastie is the one. Hang in there x
Snugglybean - wow that would be fantastic if you are pg! Fingers crossed for you too xx
Ferrals - I haven't read your story but you sound like a very strong woman indeed. I'd love to see you little Abbie - I'll email you my address.
AFM - still waiting for AF, hating taking the DHEA and being so irritable, tired as all buggery and finishing up work. Think I'll give myself a bit of a break after that to try to regroup and get my energy and enthusiasm back. Most days I just want to crawl under a rock and let it all wash over me.
Craftmummy - I do believe at our age it is probably about catching the right egg but I am baffled as to why I can fall pregnant so easily (usually within 2 cycles) if my egg quality is that poor. And my body seems happy to host a pregnancy as it continues merrily along even after the baby stops growing.
Ferrals - I thought about other testing but it's likely (if things still work) that I will get pregnant again before the testing is complete so I think I am just going to concentrate on being as healthy as I can and hoping for the best. I am not sure if that is naive but that's the way I think I can handle best. I will send you PM as I would love to see your presentation of Abbi.
MurrayCod - I don't think it's bad to have a low patch and focus back to when things were good. It's only a problem if you can't shake that off after a few days. I am quite a melancholy person and sometimes I like to wallow in these old memories. The trick is to just dip your toe in and not get fully immersed (figuratively speaking of course, don't get into the river!).
Sunbeam - I'm thinking of you today.
AFM - I am getting so desperate over my weight. I was 65kg when I first fell pregnant last year and now I'm 74kg. I started gym last month, 3-4 days a week which I've faithfully attended for a month now. I've seriously modified my diet and yet I can't seem to shift anything. Maybe this is another age thing. My body seems to just say, forget it, this is where you are and this is where you stay.
Murrycod-the converted file wont send it was converted to a video file which took forever to load then when it was almost complete it came up error so i'm back to the drawing board trying to figure out how to get it to you.
SammyP-just uploading yours now it's a slow process sending a powerpoint slide show but hopefully not to long.
Ok i will upload the video file to photo bucket and see if that work's the only thing is it takes forever to load a video file and it will be the not so perfect copy of the montage with the blue copyright symbol on it but it will have to do until we buy a program that will do it cross fingers it works this time
SPF - good news on those HCG levels. Best of luck for the 23rd! It's a very special day for me - it's Amelia's first anniversary. I have had so much going on that I haven't given much thought to to the day. I have stopped work, as of end of the day tomorrow, so can give it some more real thought. Hard to believe this time last year I was blissfully unaware of the heartache soon to be upon me. Doesn't seem like a year, 365 days, 52 weeks. How's Amy? Not really any funny cat stories from me, but maybe there will be more when I am at home more? Anyway, I will be thinking of you, go well my friend.
ferals4 - if you post Abbi's montage somewhere else can you give the link? I would love to see it.
I hope your girl makes you a super good egg this month.
Showed DH and he was v. amused so it is on our fridge now and will be part of my positive thinking strategy in the months to come. Just had to share that with you!!
. Not good!
in so my every other day has started for this next week so I 
I have a good eggie ready to make friends with a very smart spermy ! then settle into a very comfy bed for the next 9 mnths !
need to relax now and do another opk !
x
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