I don't even know how to put this into words, somehow that will make it real.

I had my scan with ob this morning and he could see nothing at all in my uterus. He has done another bt and if my levels are still rising then he will do a laporoscopy tomorrow suspecting to find an ectopic pg. If the levels have stopped or dropped then I will simply miscarry.

Some how part of me is calm and ready to try again and full of hope and the other half of me is destroyed and not knowing how I will go on.